02/19/08 EMO Night…anyone?

Last night was EMO night. Lolx. If only Quicksilver would stop talking to me. Just let me go! Then again, he asked for friendship. Who was I to turn it down? Dang! Oh well, I’ll just ignore this feeling. Whatever it is! Besides, I know what triggers this. I know I’m starting to like someone else. Every time this happens, some unimaginable force draws me towards him *Quicksilver*. Anyways, this someone-else-guy, I’m naming him Keisuke. I’ve been talking to Keisuke for almost a month now but it feels like I’ve known him longer than that. I enjoy having conversations with him. I like him. Oh but not that kind of “like”. How should I say this? I like him just as I like those I consider as friends-for-keeps. Something like that. Sometimes, Keisuke says the silliest things. He says impossible things that I wonder if it’ll ever come true. Though it’s nice to think of… Maybe… Just maybe... *wishful thinking* He’s adorable. He likes to throw compliments out of nowhere. A romantic kind of guy. Oh!!! I must stop this nonsense! It would do no good being romantically-linked with Keisuke-kun. T_T These confusing thoughts are the reasons why I’m being emo! I had this nagging feeling so I called Quicksilver. Normal chit chats… He sounded surprised. He sounded happy. Guess all I really wanted was to hear his voice and see if my heart would skip a beat. It didn’t. Dang! It was so normal that it makes me sick. All I’m seeking is some sort of confirmation that I was still infatuated with him that there’s no room for anyone else. Then again, it didn’t turn out that way. I thought the nagging feeling was because I felt guilty for turning my attention to Keisuke rather than Quicksilver. But no… it wasn’t that. It wasn’t a nagging feeling at all. It was fear. Fear that Quicksilver’s place is now vacant. That anytime, someone can go steal it away. ~_~ Oh Zen me ban? *what to do?*