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Welcome to Shroom Side. Finding solace among nature on a cold rainy day.
.::The Shroom::.
~Kim
~"i don't need to see him to know in my heart that he exists..."~
~email: kimxen@gmail.com
.::My Adores::.
~her prince Kurama
~her dad, the dependable King
~her mom, the caring Queen
~her sister, the older princess
~her brother, the young prince
~her soul sister Serene
~her knight, Lord Ryzhen
.::Detests::.
~dark minions
~sewing class
~inconsiderate profs
~evil darkness
~rejection
~failure
~betrayal
~uncertainty
.::Wishlist::.
~to be part of her prince's world~to travel the world
~to visit Ireland, Japan & Korea
~volumes and tomes of magical craft
~peaceful kingdom
~a bright future ahead
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~to collect Ouran High Manga
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.::Dewdrops::.
Legion Of Gaea
APC
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Prince Yoeru
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Prince Akabane
Prince Mamaru
Prince Kira Yamato
Destiny Waltz
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Monday, June 26, 2006
Yay! Have you ever experienced waking up at 4am when you practically slept at around 2am? Some would probably say yes but here's the clinch! You wake up barely having two hours of sleep and yet you feel happy and energetic for no apparent reason. That's what I felt today and it turned out that I had one of the best days of my college life. Oh okay, I was exaggerating. It's just one of those lucky days. Hmm.. okay, at first I thought I was late for class for the first time. It really got me worried because I promised myself I wouldn't be late *or atleast try not to* heehee. Hmm.. but it turned out that I wasn't late and I even had time to talk to the class regarding the retreat. All of us agreed to have it in Baguio although I know some were opposed with the idea yet they chose not to speak. So that's settled. Our class voted for Baguio. Then after class, I talked with section 9 even if I had to do my report asap. 10 of them chose Tagaytay but the rest decided to go with Baguio. So it's over. Baguio's gonna be our venue! Yay! I worked so hard for it. Whew! So there. After I talked with the section, I went to our advisers and told them I have my report already but I decided to pass it on Wednesday for I have no time to type it right away. I went to the library but on my way, I realized that I left my library card at home!!! Oh no!! Dilemma! What about my report? I only have 30 minutes left! So I decided to get another library card but then I had to pay for it and the line was soooooo long at the accounting office!!! It's 3:10 when I got the library card and my class is at 3pm. Whoa!!! I was thinking if I should just skip class but then again, that's not like me. So I took the risk and went in. Haha! Imagine!!! I don't know anything about the report yet I managed to deliver it right! Yay!!! Was I ever happy to get the job done. I wish I could be this flexible all throughout the semester. ^_^Oh and I get to talk with "him". I mean the guy I was tellin' you about in my last post. I went to his classroom to discuss something and surprisingly, he never left my side *unless some guys at the back call him*. Geez!!! ^_^ That's it!!!
Wednesday, June 21, 2006
Hiyah! I'm supposed to be having my duty today but unfortunately our clinical instructor didn't show up. So here I am infront of the pc. Heehee. I am quite confused today for unexplainable reasons. There's this guy in school. We belong to the same batch only he's in a different section. Well, I kind of know him by face even before. I see him in school every now and then but I really don't take notice of him much. But since we've been introduced and happen to work with each other. Err... I don't know why I've been thinking about him?! It's not that I like him or anything. I don't know. Gyaaah! Or maybe I realized that he looked like someone I used to be with. Errr.. I really don't know. Well, yeah, I admit that everytime he's around, I get this queasy feeling that I can't look at him straight out yet, I take glances every now and then. Geez, he's definitely not my type and i don't really like him at all. But I don't know... see, I'm even writing something about him. Gyaaaah!!! Noooo! Whew... I don't understand...and I hate this feeling. X_x
Friday, June 16, 2006
Okay! This is it. I am now in my last semester. Finally! I think it's time to get serious with my studies. I know I've said this a lot of times now. But I really have to do it this time. I can't just settle with a passing grade of 75 or so. That would get me nowhere and it's against what I had planned before. WORLD DOMINATION *insert maniacal laughter here*... I know I have to sacrifice a lot of things: YM, blog, net surfing, anime, forums, online friends. All that. Gyaaah! I can't imagine life without it. X_x I hope the result would be enough to compensate for my temporary NET DEATH. I am scared to fail myself. After all, I hate failure. I used to think I wasn't born for that. There's no such word in my vocabulary. I was quite distracted for awhile. I admit that. I wasn't taking everything seriously. But now I realized, I had to stand up. But before this, I have to settle everything first. So I've come up with notes for my friends so you won't get worried or anything like that. And to clear things a bit. It's not that I won't be totally online. Well, I'll keep a low profile for a few months. Maybe I'll update my blog once a week. ^_^
Kuya Tan and Ate Khaye: You might wonder where I am or what I'm doing. Heehee. I'll be studying real hard. Of course, I don't want to fail you both too. Just stay happy with each other and keep updating your friendster accounts. Okei? Coz I'll be checking that once a month. I want to see your US trip photos huh! Don't forget to buy me a gift!!! Heehee. I love you both! ^_^
Serene: If you still haven't got the clue why I got mad at you, it's because I made you my priority and it seems to me that I allowed you to have me as just an option. It hurts me to think I became your second choice. But probably, that's what love can do. I know Miki's important to you and I hate him for stealing my bestfriend away from me. You chose him over me and I was replaced by your RO friends whom you have met for only a year or so. You can openly say everything to them but you kept everything from me. I still don't know why or since when. Guess, I wouldn't want to know about that. Yes, I was disappointed but not because of what you did, but because I expected too much from you depriving you to grow and all that. I know I can't keep you with me and Maan forever. I was too selfish to think that way. But that's not what friendship is all about. I realized that. I became overprotective and selfish and I don't want to go on that way. Like the last episode of Gakuen Alice, Mikan can't follow Hotaru forever. I understand now that we can't keep choosing the same path. I was overwhelmed by our dreams or MY dreams rather that I failed to consider you both. Maybe because I assumed that it's what you also wanted. I am still depressed and I haven't totally gotten over it yet. I still get emotional when I think of it. But I have to move on and pull myself together. I need to think things through. After all, it's what I'm supposed to be good at. Analyzing. All wounds will heal in time. Just in case there's anything to forgive, I already did. And for all the negative things I did, I am sorry. I had always been thankful for the memories we had that I still consider it the most important phase in my life. We were there for each other, or atleast try to be. I know I can't throw all that away. It will be forever etched in my heart until the day I die. I will still continue my dreams. For my sake and yours. :) I am Xenos.
Ryzhen: Hei Maan. Sorry if I wasn't able to text you lately. I was really bothered with what happened to me and Serene. But as I've said, my soul won't rest until I get it all out. Thank you for everything. I will still pursue our chosen path and hopefully we get to live the dream as what we visualized it to be. You are my knight and you'll forever be. I wish you all the best too! Go show 'em what you've got! Haha! I miss you so much!
Nick and Jo: Tasuki!!! Thank you for cheering me up. Heehee. For teasing me with Gerald. hahaha! You were one of the few who made me realize that getting angry won't get me anywhere. That it won't solve anything. Though I haven't personally talked to her about it, I guess it'll come in time. You will always be one of my shiichiseishi. As for Tamahome, don't stress yourself to death in earning YEN!!! Wahahahaha! There's more to life. Enjoy it. Goodluck with your Japanese gal. I'll be seeing you again Tama-chan! Don't forget to invite me to your wedding. Heehee! You're not getting any younger so you should go get yourself a pretty wife like Tasuki! Lolx. ^_^
Jake: Hmm.. I've basically told you everything beforehand so this wouldn't come up as a surprise. Thank you for being my confidante, my diary and my conscience. Lolx. Funny because you're way younger than me yet you think so ahead. ^_^ Funny how you've always been the sensible one. You always make me laugh and you stay with me despite my shortcomings. I probably haven't told you that I appreciate everything you did. But best of all, I am thankful to have met someone like you. If I am the Yin, then you are my Yang. (*Yin, the darker element, is passive, dark, feminine, downward-seeking, and corresponds to the night; yang, the brighter element, is active, light, masculine, upward-seeking and corresponds to the day; yin is often symbolized by water, while yang is symbolized by fire.*) You are someone that balances and stabilizes my character. Don't you know that Yin and Yang can transform into one another? Remember when Blessed Devil turned into Seraphim, Tohru turned into Insanity! I was amazed when I realized that. So i'm sorry for the abrupt change I had before. But even if I did get "darker and/or weirder", I did try my best to stay the same for you alone. I know that things between us aren't the way they used to be. I can feel that too. But somehow I am thankful because you try to bring it back somehow. You believed in me when I, myself, thought everything was hopeless. When I thought I'm about to fall apart, you were there to keep me whole. Thank you. Heh. Thank you for not giving me up. If we had met in different circumstances then maybe... maybe things could somehow work out. ^_^ But then again, remember what you said before: Don't...... with internet buddies. I am thinking that maybe I did *partially or almost* break that promise. Haha! So there casanova, demi-god, persistent brat, honey and all the names I used to call you. Lolx. Thanx and sorry for everything. I will miss that creepy smile. (^^,)
Raissa: Keep on enhancing your blog! You are definitely one of the great writers I've encountered so far that's why I idolize you so much! Heehee! you're like a model to me. Seriously. ^_^ I know that you'll be concentrating with your board exam too so I wish you the best! You can do it! Believe me. You'll pass it with flying colors. I'm always here to back you up. Stay cool!!!
Clariz: Mama Clariz, *kumusta naman yon?!* hehehe. I'm gonna miss that line coming from you. We can text once in while! Just to get the latest buzz from you. Heehee. I entrust APC to you and Neko 'coz Kuroi and I would get pretty busy for a while. ^_^
Jers: Well, I guess I've been staying away from this for awhile. If you're reading this, I want to say sorry. I want you to know that I am still guilty for what I did before. I don't know why. Probably because you were so good to me and what I'd given you in return was the exact opposite. I still think of myself as bad. You never did blame me for anything. That's why I still call myself the ultimate villain. Even if you said that everything's okay, it still bothers me. I feel bad. I was probably traumatized because up until now I can't move on. I am scared that I would do the same thing to another person. I can't talk to you because I am afraid that you'd get hurt again. I don't want that. I want you to be happy and it seems to me that you'll be happier without me around. I know it's been almost a year... I hope that I'd get over this guilt. Again, sorry for everything. :(
APC friends: Just keep APC alive. Oh and DON'T FLOOD THE FORUM WITH SPAM! rawr... or I'll get each and everyone of you. Akabane, do your job huh. You're good at terrorizing! :p Lolx.
Crypt/VoA friends: Sorry for the sudden change I had before. I wasn't thinking of everything clearly back then. Sorry for my shortcomings and for being cold. I can't even pretend to be happy. Sorry for that... especially to Endoh Chiaka and Bloo Gale.
My Frequent Visitors: Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! For taking time to read my entries. I am really grateful. ^_^ I hope you'll continue visiting my little haven. I hope that I made a difference in your life even for a single bit. I love you all! I promise I'll do my best! Ja, matta ne minna-san!
Kuya Tan and Ate Khaye: You might wonder where I am or what I'm doing. Heehee. I'll be studying real hard. Of course, I don't want to fail you both too. Just stay happy with each other and keep updating your friendster accounts. Okei? Coz I'll be checking that once a month. I want to see your US trip photos huh! Don't forget to buy me a gift!!! Heehee. I love you both! ^_^
Serene: If you still haven't got the clue why I got mad at you, it's because I made you my priority and it seems to me that I allowed you to have me as just an option. It hurts me to think I became your second choice. But probably, that's what love can do. I know Miki's important to you and I hate him for stealing my bestfriend away from me. You chose him over me and I was replaced by your RO friends whom you have met for only a year or so. You can openly say everything to them but you kept everything from me. I still don't know why or since when. Guess, I wouldn't want to know about that. Yes, I was disappointed but not because of what you did, but because I expected too much from you depriving you to grow and all that. I know I can't keep you with me and Maan forever. I was too selfish to think that way. But that's not what friendship is all about. I realized that. I became overprotective and selfish and I don't want to go on that way. Like the last episode of Gakuen Alice, Mikan can't follow Hotaru forever. I understand now that we can't keep choosing the same path. I was overwhelmed by our dreams or MY dreams rather that I failed to consider you both. Maybe because I assumed that it's what you also wanted. I am still depressed and I haven't totally gotten over it yet. I still get emotional when I think of it. But I have to move on and pull myself together. I need to think things through. After all, it's what I'm supposed to be good at. Analyzing. All wounds will heal in time. Just in case there's anything to forgive, I already did. And for all the negative things I did, I am sorry. I had always been thankful for the memories we had that I still consider it the most important phase in my life. We were there for each other, or atleast try to be. I know I can't throw all that away. It will be forever etched in my heart until the day I die. I will still continue my dreams. For my sake and yours. :) I am Xenos.
Ryzhen: Hei Maan. Sorry if I wasn't able to text you lately. I was really bothered with what happened to me and Serene. But as I've said, my soul won't rest until I get it all out. Thank you for everything. I will still pursue our chosen path and hopefully we get to live the dream as what we visualized it to be. You are my knight and you'll forever be. I wish you all the best too! Go show 'em what you've got! Haha! I miss you so much!
Nick and Jo: Tasuki!!! Thank you for cheering me up. Heehee. For teasing me with Gerald. hahaha! You were one of the few who made me realize that getting angry won't get me anywhere. That it won't solve anything. Though I haven't personally talked to her about it, I guess it'll come in time. You will always be one of my shiichiseishi. As for Tamahome, don't stress yourself to death in earning YEN!!! Wahahahaha! There's more to life. Enjoy it. Goodluck with your Japanese gal. I'll be seeing you again Tama-chan! Don't forget to invite me to your wedding. Heehee! You're not getting any younger so you should go get yourself a pretty wife like Tasuki! Lolx. ^_^
Jake: Hmm.. I've basically told you everything beforehand so this wouldn't come up as a surprise. Thank you for being my confidante, my diary and my conscience. Lolx. Funny because you're way younger than me yet you think so ahead. ^_^ Funny how you've always been the sensible one. You always make me laugh and you stay with me despite my shortcomings. I probably haven't told you that I appreciate everything you did. But best of all, I am thankful to have met someone like you. If I am the Yin, then you are my Yang. (*Yin, the darker element, is passive, dark, feminine, downward-seeking, and corresponds to the night; yang, the brighter element, is active, light, masculine, upward-seeking and corresponds to the day; yin is often symbolized by water, while yang is symbolized by fire.*) You are someone that balances and stabilizes my character. Don't you know that Yin and Yang can transform into one another? Remember when Blessed Devil turned into Seraphim, Tohru turned into Insanity! I was amazed when I realized that. So i'm sorry for the abrupt change I had before. But even if I did get "darker and/or weirder", I did try my best to stay the same for you alone. I know that things between us aren't the way they used to be. I can feel that too. But somehow I am thankful because you try to bring it back somehow. You believed in me when I, myself, thought everything was hopeless. When I thought I'm about to fall apart, you were there to keep me whole. Thank you. Heh. Thank you for not giving me up. If we had met in different circumstances then maybe... maybe things could somehow work out. ^_^ But then again, remember what you said before: Don't...... with internet buddies. I am thinking that maybe I did *partially or almost* break that promise. Haha! So there casanova, demi-god, persistent brat, honey and all the names I used to call you. Lolx. Thanx and sorry for everything. I will miss that creepy smile. (^^,)
Raissa: Keep on enhancing your blog! You are definitely one of the great writers I've encountered so far that's why I idolize you so much! Heehee! you're like a model to me. Seriously. ^_^ I know that you'll be concentrating with your board exam too so I wish you the best! You can do it! Believe me. You'll pass it with flying colors. I'm always here to back you up. Stay cool!!!
Clariz: Mama Clariz, *kumusta naman yon?!* hehehe. I'm gonna miss that line coming from you. We can text once in while! Just to get the latest buzz from you. Heehee. I entrust APC to you and Neko 'coz Kuroi and I would get pretty busy for a while. ^_^
Jers: Well, I guess I've been staying away from this for awhile. If you're reading this, I want to say sorry. I want you to know that I am still guilty for what I did before. I don't know why. Probably because you were so good to me and what I'd given you in return was the exact opposite. I still think of myself as bad. You never did blame me for anything. That's why I still call myself the ultimate villain. Even if you said that everything's okay, it still bothers me. I feel bad. I was probably traumatized because up until now I can't move on. I am scared that I would do the same thing to another person. I can't talk to you because I am afraid that you'd get hurt again. I don't want that. I want you to be happy and it seems to me that you'll be happier without me around. I know it's been almost a year... I hope that I'd get over this guilt. Again, sorry for everything. :(
APC friends: Just keep APC alive. Oh and DON'T FLOOD THE FORUM WITH SPAM! rawr... or I'll get each and everyone of you. Akabane, do your job huh. You're good at terrorizing! :p Lolx.
Crypt/VoA friends: Sorry for the sudden change I had before. I wasn't thinking of everything clearly back then. Sorry for my shortcomings and for being cold. I can't even pretend to be happy. Sorry for that... especially to Endoh Chiaka and Bloo Gale.
My Frequent Visitors: Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! For taking time to read my entries. I am really grateful. ^_^ I hope you'll continue visiting my little haven. I hope that I made a difference in your life even for a single bit. I love you all! I promise I'll do my best! Ja, matta ne minna-san!
Thursday, June 15, 2006
These were poems made by one of my dearest friends, Carlo a.k.a. Eugene/Yusuke Urameshi (read: guardian devil) hehehe... It's hard to explain when exactly did I meet this guy or how old he is. We've been together since 2nd year high school. He's just too mysterious. Anyways, I'm glad I met him, even happier to be his friend. I was browsing my poem collection when I saw this monumental artifact.. Lolx... (read: hieroglyphical form of writing). Nyahahaha! Nevertheless, I miss this wacko. I hope he's happy wherever he is. Shine, my comet! Hehe.
*~*~*Ngumiti Kaya Siya?*~*~*
Ngumiti kaya siya?
'Pag ako'y nakita?
Mga ningning ng mata,
Nais kong marinig ang tawa...
Panahon ang hinintay,
Para makuha kanyang kamay...
'Di lang niya alam ang totoo...
Na siya pala ang iniibig ko.
'Kala niya iba,
'Di niya alam na siya...
Kailan, ang tanong,
Na malaman niya ang totoo...
Na sya ang laging bulong,
Nang puso kong ito...
~>lovely right? awww.... here's another one.
*~*~*Wagas*~*~*
Sa tuwina
Mukha mo'y aking naaalala
Bakit ba ganito?
Pakiramdam ko mahal din niya ko.
Mahal ko siya,
Tiyak na 'di siya maniniwala.
Manhid na ba ang puso,
Na 'di makadarama kahit tibok?
Ngunit nandito pa rin
Tanging gusto na ikaw'y mapasakin
Hanggang sulyap na lang ba?
Paano 'pag ikaw'y nawala?
'Di ko alam aking magagawa.
Pag-ibig ko,
Tanging alay ko sa iyo.
Kahit na tumanda na lahat ng bagay,
Ikaw sa puso ko'y nakalagay.
Di mo man seryosohin,
Puso ko man ay pisain,
Tanging aking sasabihin,
Kasalanan ko bang ikaw ay mahalin?
Ito'y walang wakas.
Pag-ibig ko sa iyo'y wagas!
~>romantic. so romantic... ^_^ the next one pertains to me and my high school buddies.
*~*~*Usual Day ng mga Babae*~*~*
Kim: Ana Marie blah blah blah...
Ana: Baliw! (sabay hataw sa ulo ni Kim)
Kim: Arayyy! (gaganti)
Ted: (makikisabak sa gulo)
Armie: (madadamay at mahahataw)
Kim,Ana,Ted: (sweatdrops)
Armie: ... ... ...
Kim: Si Ana Marie nagsimula. (turo kay Ana sabay belat)
Ana: Hindi ako! Ikaw nauna eh!
Ted: Kayong dalawa!!!
Armie: Hmm... feeling ko si... (titigil at makikiramdam sabay tingin sa paligid)
Carlo: Hep,hep,hep, 'di naman siguro ako sinisisi niyo no?
Kim,Ana,Ted,Armie: Hmmm... (may hawak na pentel pen)
Carlo: Waaaaah!
Ending: Ginawang canvas ang gwapo kong mukha (T_T)
~>heehee... I remember how we torture him.. lolx. Hey Eugene, someone's still waiting for you. So wherever you are right now, hurry and come home. It's been more than 3 years! You promised my friend, remember? Hehe. She might find the comfort of hearing "it" from someone else and I can't do anything for you. I was really hoping you end up together. You deserve to be happy, so is she... So get that mission done and fulfill that promise.
*~*~*Ngumiti Kaya Siya?*~*~*
Ngumiti kaya siya?
'Pag ako'y nakita?
Mga ningning ng mata,
Nais kong marinig ang tawa...
Panahon ang hinintay,
Para makuha kanyang kamay...
'Di lang niya alam ang totoo...
Na siya pala ang iniibig ko.
'Kala niya iba,
'Di niya alam na siya...
Kailan, ang tanong,
Na malaman niya ang totoo...
Na sya ang laging bulong,
Nang puso kong ito...
~>lovely right? awww.... here's another one.
*~*~*Wagas*~*~*
Sa tuwina
Mukha mo'y aking naaalala
Bakit ba ganito?
Pakiramdam ko mahal din niya ko.
Mahal ko siya,
Tiyak na 'di siya maniniwala.
Manhid na ba ang puso,
Na 'di makadarama kahit tibok?
Ngunit nandito pa rin
Tanging gusto na ikaw'y mapasakin
Hanggang sulyap na lang ba?
Paano 'pag ikaw'y nawala?
'Di ko alam aking magagawa.
Pag-ibig ko,
Tanging alay ko sa iyo.
Kahit na tumanda na lahat ng bagay,
Ikaw sa puso ko'y nakalagay.
Di mo man seryosohin,
Puso ko man ay pisain,
Tanging aking sasabihin,
Kasalanan ko bang ikaw ay mahalin?
Ito'y walang wakas.
Pag-ibig ko sa iyo'y wagas!
~>romantic. so romantic... ^_^ the next one pertains to me and my high school buddies.
*~*~*Usual Day ng mga Babae*~*~*
Kim: Ana Marie blah blah blah...
Ana: Baliw! (sabay hataw sa ulo ni Kim)
Kim: Arayyy! (gaganti)
Ted: (makikisabak sa gulo)
Armie: (madadamay at mahahataw)
Kim,Ana,Ted: (sweatdrops)
Armie: ... ... ...
Kim: Si Ana Marie nagsimula. (turo kay Ana sabay belat)
Ana: Hindi ako! Ikaw nauna eh!
Ted: Kayong dalawa!!!
Armie: Hmm... feeling ko si... (titigil at makikiramdam sabay tingin sa paligid)
Carlo: Hep,hep,hep, 'di naman siguro ako sinisisi niyo no?
Kim,Ana,Ted,Armie: Hmmm... (may hawak na pentel pen)
Carlo: Waaaaah!
Ending: Ginawang canvas ang gwapo kong mukha (T_T)
~>heehee... I remember how we torture him.. lolx. Hey Eugene, someone's still waiting for you. So wherever you are right now, hurry and come home. It's been more than 3 years! You promised my friend, remember? Hehe. She might find the comfort of hearing "it" from someone else and I can't do anything for you. I was really hoping you end up together. You deserve to be happy, so is she... So get that mission done and fulfill that promise.
Since I met you
I really hated you
For you always tease me
Annoy me, that's what you do
We argue like cats and dogs
What's weird is I am the dog
I said "woof!"
Then you teasingly said "meow..."
I was irritated so bad,
Really bad!
But then this argument began to be cold
When you suddenly left
I felt so lonely
I thought I was going to die
I don't know why I really miss you so
Maybe it's just because we tease each other
But why do I feel you're important to me
Though you're my enemy
You don't seem to understand me
Nor I...
But why?
Maybe I am just confuse
By the way things are happening
I can still hear and remember
Those petty arguments
Those uncheerful remarks
we said to each other
There was a point when I just laugh
For I realized we're like kids
who argues with a toy
But we're old now.
We're not kids anymore
Why do we have to quarrel?
Ahh! I know we need to quarrel
'Cause it's the only way to be close to you
Oh, I hope you feel the same way too
One day you suddenly rose
I was happy... very glad you're back
Then our arguments started all over again
I was touched by this
But deep inside, I know you're happy to see me
I know somehow you missed me
Everyday seems ordinary again but...
But now I know I'm not falling in love...
'Cause I was really in loved with you since then!
~by A.M.V.A
I really hated you
For you always tease me
Annoy me, that's what you do
We argue like cats and dogs
What's weird is I am the dog
I said "woof!"
Then you teasingly said "meow..."
I was irritated so bad,
Really bad!
But then this argument began to be cold
When you suddenly left
I felt so lonely
I thought I was going to die
I don't know why I really miss you so
Maybe it's just because we tease each other
But why do I feel you're important to me
Though you're my enemy
You don't seem to understand me
Nor I...
But why?
Maybe I am just confuse
By the way things are happening
I can still hear and remember
Those petty arguments
Those uncheerful remarks
we said to each other
There was a point when I just laugh
For I realized we're like kids
who argues with a toy
But we're old now.
We're not kids anymore
Why do we have to quarrel?
Ahh! I know we need to quarrel
'Cause it's the only way to be close to you
Oh, I hope you feel the same way too
One day you suddenly rose
I was happy... very glad you're back
Then our arguments started all over again
I was touched by this
But deep inside, I know you're happy to see me
I know somehow you missed me
Everyday seems ordinary again but...
But now I know I'm not falling in love...
'Cause I was really in loved with you since then!
~by A.M.V.A
Tuesday, June 13, 2006
From the first time I saw you
I have loved you with all my heart
But it seems that you don't see me
And I know the reason why
I could only have you in my dreams
Heaven knows that I love you so
And it really hurts to know
That I'm not the one for you
So I'm letting you go now
Though it hurts so much inside
Don't look back now
I don't want you to see me crying
Now all I ever do is to think of you
Think of the love I lost
But just the same...
I love you and goodbye.
I have loved you with all my heart
But it seems that you don't see me
And I know the reason why
I could only have you in my dreams
Heaven knows that I love you so
And it really hurts to know
That I'm not the one for you
So I'm letting you go now
Though it hurts so much inside
Don't look back now
I don't want you to see me crying
Now all I ever do is to think of you
Think of the love I lost
But just the same...
I love you and goodbye.
I'm so tired of pretending
It's painful deep inside
I just wish it's all over
And that feelings just subside
It hurts to love somebody
And not to be loved in return
It's hard to say take care
If he's too busy to turn
It's not easy to live without him
If he used to make you glow
It's hard to set him free
If he's not yours to let go
It's hard to say goodbye
If you never say hello
And if nothing was started...
How could a true love grow?
I know he wasn't meant for me
'Cause he belongs to someone else
And though I've accpeted that reality...
Still... For me it hurts!
It's painful deep inside
I just wish it's all over
And that feelings just subside
It hurts to love somebody
And not to be loved in return
It's hard to say take care
If he's too busy to turn
It's not easy to live without him
If he used to make you glow
It's hard to set him free
If he's not yours to let go
It's hard to say goodbye
If you never say hello
And if nothing was started...
How could a true love grow?
I know he wasn't meant for me
'Cause he belongs to someone else
And though I've accpeted that reality...
Still... For me it hurts!
You have to be strong
And life must go on
Somehow I go away
But my love for you will stay
Though our love is right
We must follow the light
So, I bid you goodbye
And please, darling, don't cry
Maybe it's wrong
To leave you on your own
But I promise, you'll never be alone
But if you think you feel the pain
Don't think I don't feel the same
Now open your eyes,
For I am grieving
Let go of your hands,
For I am leaving.
And life must go on
Somehow I go away
But my love for you will stay
Though our love is right
We must follow the light
So, I bid you goodbye
And please, darling, don't cry
Maybe it's wrong
To leave you on your own
But I promise, you'll never be alone
But if you think you feel the pain
Don't think I don't feel the same
Now open your eyes,
For I am grieving
Let go of your hands,
For I am leaving.
As I sit here in my bed
In solitary state
I imagined you with her
Making me so desperate
For all the times
I wanted to say
How much I love you
How much I care
I tried to forget you
To pretend that I don't love you
Coz I know you're something
I couldn't ever have
Perhaps it's time
For me to accept
That what you think of me
Is just a friend
In solitary state
I imagined you with her
Making me so desperate
For all the times
I wanted to say
How much I love you
How much I care
I tried to forget you
To pretend that I don't love you
Coz I know you're something
I couldn't ever have
Perhaps it's time
For me to accept
That what you think of me
Is just a friend
Sunday, June 11, 2006
*~*~*Old Entry From My Former Haven*~*~*
A/N: Made and posted sometime around October 2004.
It was on the 29th of December that my sister would finally make her vows to the man she would spend the rest of her life with. It was a fine day. A bit cloudy but it was fine just the same. I made the last-minute preparations and took the time to breathe in just a bit of fresh air from the balcony. The sun began to set and I knew it was time for me to return inside. After all, the ceremony was about to start. But the silence and serenity of the place made me stay for a while. It made me look back on our childhood days. I can still remember how she would make me drink the milk on the bottle which I really hated back then. She was good at taking care of me when we were young. She would take me to my classroom just before the bell rings and make sure I have my "baon" with me. Of course we had our share of petty quarrels. It all ends up with her, crying. She cries when she's mad and I took it as an advantage for me back then. 'Cause when she cries, it's the end of our fight and by dinnertime, all's back to normal. But it was when we were in college that I truly began to understand her. To see her not only as a sister, but a friend as well. We would start hanging out with each other, sharing secrets and she would let me read her diary too. That li'l notebook which contained her "other side". That li'l thing that conceals all her misadventures, fantasies about life, friendship, love and hate. I never paid much attention to those little things until now... It made me feel alone now that I think of it. Who can I confide in with now that she's starting a new chapter in her life? Who can I turn to? Who can I laugh with, go to malls with, eat heaps of servings with? I never thought of that until now... My mind was pulled back to reality when I finally saw the bridal car below. I saw her. With her yellow ochre gown billowing as the wind gently passed by. There was something different with the way she looks. Then she saw me. I saw the twinkle in her eyes. With that single glance, all my doubts sank in. I knew she's happy. I knew she wouldn't want me to hold her back. I don't want to take that happiness from her for that was what I am fighting for. I was fighting for her happiness for 23 years now... and I will continue to fight for it. The ceremony started and ended but the twinkle never left her eyes. I love you sis...from the bottom of my heart, I do.
A/N: Made and posted sometime around October 2004.
It was on the 29th of December that my sister would finally make her vows to the man she would spend the rest of her life with. It was a fine day. A bit cloudy but it was fine just the same. I made the last-minute preparations and took the time to breathe in just a bit of fresh air from the balcony. The sun began to set and I knew it was time for me to return inside. After all, the ceremony was about to start. But the silence and serenity of the place made me stay for a while. It made me look back on our childhood days. I can still remember how she would make me drink the milk on the bottle which I really hated back then. She was good at taking care of me when we were young. She would take me to my classroom just before the bell rings and make sure I have my "baon" with me. Of course we had our share of petty quarrels. It all ends up with her, crying. She cries when she's mad and I took it as an advantage for me back then. 'Cause when she cries, it's the end of our fight and by dinnertime, all's back to normal. But it was when we were in college that I truly began to understand her. To see her not only as a sister, but a friend as well. We would start hanging out with each other, sharing secrets and she would let me read her diary too. That li'l notebook which contained her "other side". That li'l thing that conceals all her misadventures, fantasies about life, friendship, love and hate. I never paid much attention to those little things until now... It made me feel alone now that I think of it. Who can I confide in with now that she's starting a new chapter in her life? Who can I turn to? Who can I laugh with, go to malls with, eat heaps of servings with? I never thought of that until now... My mind was pulled back to reality when I finally saw the bridal car below. I saw her. With her yellow ochre gown billowing as the wind gently passed by. There was something different with the way she looks. Then she saw me. I saw the twinkle in her eyes. With that single glance, all my doubts sank in. I knew she's happy. I knew she wouldn't want me to hold her back. I don't want to take that happiness from her for that was what I am fighting for. I was fighting for her happiness for 23 years now... and I will continue to fight for it. The ceremony started and ended but the twinkle never left her eyes. I love you sis...from the bottom of my heart, I do.
*~*~*Old Entry From My Former Haven*~*~*
I got these poems from Seta-san. ^_^ It was so nice that I had to post it here. Hope you like it as much as I did.
Memories,
They will fade away someday.
I will forget it someday.
I'd want to record the things that i dont want to forget,
Im recording everything here,
Everything and everyone that i dont want to forget...
Actually, I'm very forgetful but, I think that if there's
something important or when you've made an
important promise with someone you'll never forget
I swear i'll try my best to do all the things i've recorded here,
Someday it'll happen..
The promise,
will it disappear into thin air after it is done?
No, I think its just the beginning of a great relationship.
The heart that sincerely hopes for the wish to come true.
I think the promise will be fulfilled someday
if the person you've made a promise with is worth the effort.
Then you must try hard to make it happen,
And i hope that this memory will last forever.
I got these poems from Seta-san. ^_^ It was so nice that I had to post it here. Hope you like it as much as I did.
Memories,
They will fade away someday.
I will forget it someday.
I'd want to record the things that i dont want to forget,
Im recording everything here,
Everything and everyone that i dont want to forget...
Actually, I'm very forgetful but, I think that if there's
something important or when you've made an
important promise with someone you'll never forget
I swear i'll try my best to do all the things i've recorded here,
Someday it'll happen..
The promise,
will it disappear into thin air after it is done?
No, I think its just the beginning of a great relationship.
The heart that sincerely hopes for the wish to come true.
I think the promise will be fulfilled someday
if the person you've made a promise with is worth the effort.
Then you must try hard to make it happen,
And i hope that this memory will last forever.
*~*~*Old Entry From My Former Haven*~*~*
100. He's mature. Admit it! He thinks way beyond his age… *being a reincarnated guy* compared to his comrades.
99. He handles situations very well. He plans every move he takes. Sneaky but sure win! He's in control of every situation he's in. *He's not a manipulative egomaniac! >:( *
98. He's calm. Yup! He's cool and collected even at the most critical time of his life! He doesn't panic.
97. He's got green eyes. Oh my! Green eyes… Who can resist such beautiful…no…gorgeous green eyes! I can't stop swooning! *oro!!! X_x;;;*
96. He's sociable. Uh-huh…atleast compared to Hiei. He knows how to adapt.
95. He looks like a girl. Yea! You got that right. I'm not a lesbian or something but he's not only handsome... he's also divinely beautiful! With that long, fiery, red hair…gorgeous emerald spheres… dazzling smile…and the list goes on!
94. He's well-built. He's not too tall *like Sensui or Tohguro* and he's not too short *like Hiei…'nuff said*. He's got a greek god's bod…*I think* that would be the envy of any other man. *Oh okay! I'm exaggerating!*
93. He's got a green thumb. Hey! Not literally! I mean he loves plants. He's good at taking care of them. He loves nature and that's it! No wonder it’s the source of his powers.
92. He's intelligent. He's just waaaaay too smart! 'Nuff said!
91. He's got red hair. Ok…ok. Lots of other guys have red hair but I love that red hair of his.
I could list 90 reasons more…I just don't have the space…*engk!* Ok here it goes… as if I have a choice, ne?
90. He's top 1 in class.
89. He's a thousand or so in age.
88. He's quiet.
87. He's reincarnated.
86. He's a fox. *literally*
85. He's a fox. *not literally…hehehe*
84. He can change into a man-wolf too!
83. He's got magic seeds… *hah! What can you say Gokou?! Your beans is not enough!*
82. He's got rose whip.
81. He can make you laugh with his antics and innocence.
80. He can be serious sometimes.
79. He's fashionable.
78. He thinks fast.
77. He moves fast.
76. He's the leader of a band of thieves… *before, that is!*
75. He's got a cool bro. *well, stepbrother…*
74. He's loyal to his friends.
73. He's got a great voice.
72. He's got a heart-melting smile.
71. He's brave.
70. He's responsible.
69. He's caring.
68. He's got a nice family.
67. He likes to travel.
66. He likes to live a quiet life.
65. He's peaceful.
64. He's got a great past. *ah! Adventure!*
63. He's got a great name.
62. He's got a calm face. *I do not mean poker face!*
61. There’s always fog/smoke screen when he transforms… * too bad ladies!!!*
60. He's dependable.
59. He's M-A-S-C-U-L-I-N-E! *definitely a G-U-Y!*
58. He's got fox ears and a tail.*9 tails when he's a fox*
57. He's got a unique hairdo. *I wonder how he managed to do that?*
56. He's got keen eyes.
55. He's goal-oriented.
54. He has great dreams for his family.
53. He has a cute albeit weird sense of humor.
52. He has great concentration.
51. He has a cell phone! *ah! Wait 'til I get my hands on his number!!!*
50. His cell phone has a wide range of signal. *ningenkai, reikai and makai*
49. He never breaks his promise.
48. He's trustworthy.
47. He's kind.
46. He's independent.
45. He's thoughtful.
44. He's punctual.
43. He investigates first before he makes a move.
42. He's got loving parents. *my future in-laws!*
41. He's shy in a way.
40. He can be mean. *taunting and frightening*
39. He can show no mercy. *yeah! He can kill in an instant!*
38. You can’t fool him.
37. He works clean.
36. He's tough.
35. He can kill with a smile.
34. He's close to perfection.
33. He's like a prince. *My PRINCE, that is! Heehee*
32. He's like the wind – rough at times but gentle by nature.
31. He's not the showy type.
30. He's secretive.
29. He's mysterious.
28. He's very patient.
27. He's serious when you are. He's not when you're not… *err..got that?!*
26. He can fly. He can make wings out of plants.
25. He's got wicked plants. *and bombs, invisible or not, can't compare to this!!!*
24. He's a good fighter.
23. He's a good strategist.
22. He's fair-skinned.
21. He's not conscious about himself. He doesn't care what people say about him.
20. He can be a distraction. *to me and to the other ladies bitten by this love bug*
19. He's the most wonderful guy I've ever laid my eyes on.
18. He makes me suffer.
17. He makes my heart flutter and makes me sing in tune.
16. He can make me do stupid things. Well, people do crazy things when they’re in love.
15. He showed me a different world and how great it is to be alive!
14. He taught me a great deal of things. *like friendship, faith, dreams, life and love*
13. He's not from our world.
12. He makes me love myself.
11. He makes me move on.
10. He breaks my heart. *most of the time!*
9. He makes me smile.
8. He's my first LOVE! *yes! This is true!*
7. He's my soul mate. I just know it!!!
6. He's my inspiration.
5. He makes me dream dreams I never thought I could dream. *ok! Got it?!*
4. He makes me cry. *always! ='( sniff*
3. He makes me feel secured.
2. He's the reason why I exist.
1. He is my LIFE.
>>>I could list a thousand more… I love him so much!
100. He's mature. Admit it! He thinks way beyond his age… *being a reincarnated guy* compared to his comrades.
99. He handles situations very well. He plans every move he takes. Sneaky but sure win! He's in control of every situation he's in. *He's not a manipulative egomaniac! >:( *
98. He's calm. Yup! He's cool and collected even at the most critical time of his life! He doesn't panic.
97. He's got green eyes. Oh my! Green eyes… Who can resist such beautiful…no…gorgeous green eyes! I can't stop swooning! *oro!!! X_x;;;*
96. He's sociable. Uh-huh…atleast compared to Hiei. He knows how to adapt.
95. He looks like a girl. Yea! You got that right. I'm not a lesbian or something but he's not only handsome... he's also divinely beautiful! With that long, fiery, red hair…gorgeous emerald spheres… dazzling smile…and the list goes on!
94. He's well-built. He's not too tall *like Sensui or Tohguro* and he's not too short *like Hiei…'nuff said*. He's got a greek god's bod…*I think* that would be the envy of any other man. *Oh okay! I'm exaggerating!*
93. He's got a green thumb. Hey! Not literally! I mean he loves plants. He's good at taking care of them. He loves nature and that's it! No wonder it’s the source of his powers.
92. He's intelligent. He's just waaaaay too smart! 'Nuff said!
91. He's got red hair. Ok…ok. Lots of other guys have red hair but I love that red hair of his.
I could list 90 reasons more…I just don't have the space…*engk!* Ok here it goes… as if I have a choice, ne?
90. He's top 1 in class.
89. He's a thousand or so in age.
88. He's quiet.
87. He's reincarnated.
86. He's a fox. *literally*
85. He's a fox. *not literally…hehehe*
84. He can change into a man-wolf too!
83. He's got magic seeds… *hah! What can you say Gokou?! Your beans is not enough!*
82. He's got rose whip.
81. He can make you laugh with his antics and innocence.
80. He can be serious sometimes.
79. He's fashionable.
78. He thinks fast.
77. He moves fast.
76. He's the leader of a band of thieves… *before, that is!*
75. He's got a cool bro. *well, stepbrother…*
74. He's loyal to his friends.
73. He's got a great voice.
72. He's got a heart-melting smile.
71. He's brave.
70. He's responsible.
69. He's caring.
68. He's got a nice family.
67. He likes to travel.
66. He likes to live a quiet life.
65. He's peaceful.
64. He's got a great past. *ah! Adventure!*
63. He's got a great name.
62. He's got a calm face. *I do not mean poker face!*
61. There’s always fog/smoke screen when he transforms… * too bad ladies!!!*
60. He's dependable.
59. He's M-A-S-C-U-L-I-N-E! *definitely a G-U-Y!*
58. He's got fox ears and a tail.*9 tails when he's a fox*
57. He's got a unique hairdo. *I wonder how he managed to do that?*
56. He's got keen eyes.
55. He's goal-oriented.
54. He has great dreams for his family.
53. He has a cute albeit weird sense of humor.
52. He has great concentration.
51. He has a cell phone! *ah! Wait 'til I get my hands on his number!!!*
50. His cell phone has a wide range of signal. *ningenkai, reikai and makai*
49. He never breaks his promise.
48. He's trustworthy.
47. He's kind.
46. He's independent.
45. He's thoughtful.
44. He's punctual.
43. He investigates first before he makes a move.
42. He's got loving parents. *my future in-laws!*
41. He's shy in a way.
40. He can be mean. *taunting and frightening*
39. He can show no mercy. *yeah! He can kill in an instant!*
38. You can’t fool him.
37. He works clean.
36. He's tough.
35. He can kill with a smile.
34. He's close to perfection.
33. He's like a prince. *My PRINCE, that is! Heehee*
32. He's like the wind – rough at times but gentle by nature.
31. He's not the showy type.
30. He's secretive.
29. He's mysterious.
28. He's very patient.
27. He's serious when you are. He's not when you're not… *err..got that?!*
26. He can fly. He can make wings out of plants.
25. He's got wicked plants. *and bombs, invisible or not, can't compare to this!!!*
24. He's a good fighter.
23. He's a good strategist.
22. He's fair-skinned.
21. He's not conscious about himself. He doesn't care what people say about him.
20. He can be a distraction. *to me and to the other ladies bitten by this love bug*
19. He's the most wonderful guy I've ever laid my eyes on.
18. He makes me suffer.
17. He makes my heart flutter and makes me sing in tune.
16. He can make me do stupid things. Well, people do crazy things when they’re in love.
15. He showed me a different world and how great it is to be alive!
14. He taught me a great deal of things. *like friendship, faith, dreams, life and love*
13. He's not from our world.
12. He makes me love myself.
11. He makes me move on.
10. He breaks my heart. *most of the time!*
9. He makes me smile.
8. He's my first LOVE! *yes! This is true!*
7. He's my soul mate. I just know it!!!
6. He's my inspiration.
5. He makes me dream dreams I never thought I could dream. *ok! Got it?!*
4. He makes me cry. *always! ='( sniff*
3. He makes me feel secured.
2. He's the reason why I exist.
1. He is my LIFE.
>>>I could list a thousand more… I love him so much!
Friday, June 09, 2006
Ugh.. before anything else, I want to confirm that this is not the song. Nuuuu... Heehee. I am just happy today. :) Why? Because, last night, my highschool friends and I went out and got home pretty late. Like past midnight. So good coz it's my first time to be allowed to go home that late. I felt really grown up. Awww... I am sooo happy. Besides, it isn't everyday that I see my friends from highschool. I missed them so much. We get to talk like the old times. Yipee... ^_^ Too bad, Armie wasn't there to join us. She had some business to attend to. But then again, I saw her this morning as I happen to go to school. We got in the same fx taxi. Cool! We talked about lotsa things and I updated her with whatever she missed last night. But that's not all. When I arrived at school, some of my classmates were there and planning to go swimming this Saturday. Heh! At last!!! Water!!! X_x lolx... Oh I get to talk to Orochimaru-kun, Synth-san and Naruto-kun too. Wacky cousins. They are all so lovable. But that's not the best part. Well, I get to be in a conference with my so-called "family" in the Crypt. Of course, they are important to me. That's why I feel so blessed today. *No pun intended there huh!!!* I should feel lucky coz I have them all. That life doesn't stop when you lose something or someone. It goes on. Geez. :) I am really stupid. I've always been the type of person who doesn't think things through. Heehee. Well, Jake and I stayed a little while longer than Prissy and Joanne. Look what we've come up with!!! :) Tadah!
I drew the basics and he helped me put some colors and the background. Okay.. okay.. I edited it after BD left. heehee. I'd post the original pic but I have to get it from him first. He's sooo cute!!! *glomps* Haha! Gotta sleep now! Oh and yes, I missed him a lot. Bye now! :)
I drew the basics and he helped me put some colors and the background. Okay.. okay.. I edited it after BD left. heehee. I'd post the original pic but I have to get it from him first. He's sooo cute!!! *glomps* Haha! Gotta sleep now! Oh and yes, I missed him a lot. Bye now! :)
Thursday, June 08, 2006
Never was I touched by any other word, until she had said it. She was a pure innocent soul. A touch of fire warm enough to melt my frozen heart. Then I remember, what happens when the snow melts? ... ... ... It becomes spring. With that on my mind... a slow, sad smile formed in my lips. I didn't give a damn on what anyone else would think. Until I knew what she was thinking. She was sad at the sudden change. Shocked as I am when I was betrayed. Then I thought that maybe... maybe I did betray this lil angel too. Maybe I did the same thing that was done to me. How foolish. Yes, shame on me. Heh. So I told her this:
"I just want to share that people undergo a process when they've been hurt.
Denial -> Anger -> Bargaining -> Depression -> Accpetance.
People have different tolerance rates. Some may handle gigantic problems and can still smile about it while some may have experienced slight pain and would be depressed already. They may act and think inappropriately today but it wouldn't go on forever. Depending on their coping skills, the wounds will surely heal. Humor is a defensive mechanism but it doesn't work for everyone dearie. Time heals what reason cannot. You can symphatize with them but don't get too affected for soon you'll be one of them too. And you wouldn't want that. But not everything is drama."
I explained to her what happened to me.
I admit that it took time for me to realize that I still have a life. The world won't wait for me to get to my senses. I had always been sensible. I shouldn't stop being sensible.
I still have atleast one person caring for me genuinely. :) Atleast I think so. I still get lonely sometimes when I think of it. But I have accepted it already. I may have lost my dreams but I haven't lost my hope in building a new one.
She was certainly my favorite. She was like no one else. Though I haven't been with her personally, I can see a tough lil soul struggling. I want to be there for her so this lil fire will continue to bring light to others like what she had done to me.
Thanx for being a sweet lil angel. Continue caring for your friends.
Wednesday, June 07, 2006
*~*~*Waiting For Winter*~*~*
Hi again! I've finally finished furnishing the new look of my blog. :) See? See? Cool eh. Of course, it's winter. Winter is probably my favorite season. Oh, but the other three seasons are nice too. ^_^ Whatever. Okay, why Winter Tears? Well, I've mentioned in my past entries about the tragedy befallen upon me. I felt really lonesome and cold. Then I found a new skin. It suits up my mood and so here it is! Tadaaah! Although I must say that this is more plain than the princess-y look of my former blog. I am now the Snow Angel. However, I am content with this. tralala! What else, it also reminds me of Kurama. Heehee.. I don't know why. His image seems to come across my mind every now and then. Well, probably because I've loved him for like half of my life. Haha! But I've gotten over the illusion. D-uh! I seem a bit perky today although nothing good or exciting happened. I just got hooked up with Kyou Kara Maou! or better known as God(?) Save Our King. The anime is so cute! If you're looking for the series that would keep you hanging at the edge of your seat... this is not the anime for you. Hehe. It's just cute and comical and gay. Oh but it's not Yaoi. Just have some shounen-ai here and there but NO yaoi-ness *oh! the dismay!!!* hehe.. My fave character is Wolfram. He's just sooo me! Spoiled brat, egoistic, jealous, vain, has seasick syndrome, has a really bad temper, sleepy head, fire element, doesn't like defeat, daring and uber cute! Haha! Well, I know for a fact that he looks like Kurapika. That's why I like him. Oh and I know that most of the qualities he possess are negative...but that's what makes him so damn irresistible. But that's not the best part... it's the green eyes *KURAMA has green spheres too* and the name, WOLFram. *WOLF! Just like my youko kurama*... Okay, someone stop me now! I can't have another bishie overload. Not today. Heehee.. Anyways, I posted a picture of wolfram with this entry. See? He's so adorable. G'nyt! I gotta sleep. It's 3:30am. Heehee... *dreaming of Wolfram*
Thursday, June 01, 2006
*~*~*A Change of Heart*~*~*
Smile. It seems so hard a task now. However, life goes on. As they say, never give up! ^_^ Maybe things like that happen for a reason. Maybe it's just one of the obstacles I need to face. And I HAVE to face. To get past thru it. So I must move on as well. I'm okay. I must be. Things may not be the same as before but what the heck... i'm still alive, ain't I? The world won't wait for me to go back to my senses. Heh. So shall I stand. I guess I can start all over again now. After all, time heals what reason cannot.
Smile. It seems so hard a task now. However, life goes on. As they say, never give up! ^_^ Maybe things like that happen for a reason. Maybe it's just one of the obstacles I need to face. And I HAVE to face. To get past thru it. So I must move on as well. I'm okay. I must be. Things may not be the same as before but what the heck... i'm still alive, ain't I? The world won't wait for me to go back to my senses. Heh. So shall I stand. I guess I can start all over again now. After all, time heals what reason cannot.