Issue #1: APC

I quit! Yes. Well, I did just that few days ago. And yes, I was clear-headed and calm when I did that. It wasn't just a spur of emotional anger or an irrational idea. I thought about it before and the consequences it might induce. I expected a lot of comments and the angry remarks I might encounter. I know that most of the members wouldn't agree with my decisions and my views. I can't blame them. Well, truth of it all is that I'm tired of everything. I'm tired of hearing this side and that side. I'm tired of balancing things out. I'm tired of trying to please everyone and tired of the banters they make. For once, I want to listen to myself. It was hard leaving something you treasured and fought for... for a long time! Imagine all my sacrifices.. too bad it had been a waste. A waste of time and effort. I felt really useless. After all, they weren't listening to me anyhow. So what's the use of sticking to something if it doesn't make you happy? SO finally, I'm breaking the chains. I've had enough. But I am not saying that I am closing the door to the friends I've gained in this group. They will always be special.. Siyempre katulad ko silang special child. Haay. And I do think about them once in a while. Anyways, I wouldn't take back everything I've said. I've already decided and I won't change my mind. I hope they would understand.

Issue #2: Red Cross

I've always been sure of what I want. But I do have problems on how to get it. And now that I already have a definite plan, everything comes crumbling down again. Ho-hum. I wish a miracle would happen. I want to be a Red Cross volunteer. After that, I'd apply in a nearby hospital *E.R. Area* Weee... Hope everything goes well.

Issue #3: Quicksilver

Just when I thought that he's absolutely out of my life. Lolx. Here we go again. Sometimes, I just want to let go. But fate always finds a way. Arrrgh!!! My mind says it's silly and just a part of the past but my heart says otherwise. I know I must hold back. After all, it's what I'm good at. I'm trying my best to forget you. We both know I should let go... It would be nice if you'd let me try. Arrrgh!!
"I hate forcing myself to let go of one person that I need in my life. It's the only thing that makes sense but at the same time, it's the same thing that complicates me. I know that I'm better off without that person, yet I feel empty whenever I try to let go."

Uzumaki-kun: One grows distant from another not because of hatred, not because of indifference but because of fear. There's the fear that the hurt gets greater as one gets closer. A recognition of the tendency to fall deeply and consequently drowned in a quicksand of irrationalities. Sometimes, what drives one away is not the absence of emotion but the overwhelming presence of it. =_=

Arrgh!!! I'm so dead... XD