Just because your eyes don't mist doesn't mean your heart doesn't cry... and just because you come out strong doesn't mean there's nothing wrong. Often, you choose to pretend you're happy so you don't have to explain yourself to people who will never understand. Sometimes, smiling is easier than explaining why you're sad...

Badtrip! I know I said I won't write anything about it but I just have to let this out or it would eat me alive. Ho-hum. I don't want anything to do with him and his affairs. Why won't they leave it all behind!?! Why trouble yourself in bringing back the past? I'm fed up with it!!! Please be more sensitive to what others are feeling. Especially those who are concerned. Don't make an issue out of it anymore. We have different lives already.. for pete's sake. Just give up! The more you keep quiet, the more they're taunting you to reveal what you really feel. I can't stand it anymore. Okay, fine!!! I'm really affected. I don't feel comfortable having him around because I'M NOT OVER IT YET. It's not about love or anything... but my pride. Stupid, damn pride. Is this what you want to hear?! I'm beginning to regret that I've known him. Why? Because it's seems to me that he had forgotten that we were once friends too. He was not the same person I met before. I hate him now... to the point that I never want to see him again. So stop it already. Truth is, I don't want it to end this way but I've had enough. I do get tired of pretending that nothing is wrong... and I end up hurting myself even more.