*~*~*Old Entry From My Former Haven*~*~*

A/N: Made and posted sometime around October 2004.

It was on the 29th of December that my sister would finally make her vows to the man she would spend the rest of her life with. It was a fine day. A bit cloudy but it was fine just the same. I made the last-minute preparations and took the time to breathe in just a bit of fresh air from the balcony. The sun began to set and I knew it was time for me to return inside. After all, the ceremony was about to start. But the silence and serenity of the place made me stay for a while. It made me look back on our childhood days. I can still remember how she would make me drink the milk on the bottle which I really hated back then. She was good at taking care of me when we were young. She would take me to my classroom just before the bell rings and make sure I have my "baon" with me. Of course we had our share of petty quarrels. It all ends up with her, crying. She cries when she's mad and I took it as an advantage for me back then. 'Cause when she cries, it's the end of our fight and by dinnertime, all's back to normal. But it was when we were in college that I truly began to understand her. To see her not only as a sister, but a friend as well. We would start hanging out with each other, sharing secrets and she would let me read her diary too. That li'l notebook which contained her "other side". That li'l thing that conceals all her misadventures, fantasies about life, friendship, love and hate. I never paid much attention to those little things until now... It made me feel alone now that I think of it. Who can I confide in with now that she's starting a new chapter in her life? Who can I turn to? Who can I laugh with, go to malls with, eat heaps of servings with? I never thought of that until now... My mind was pulled back to reality when I finally saw the bridal car below. I saw her. With her yellow ochre gown billowing as the wind gently passed by. There was something different with the way she looks. Then she saw me. I saw the twinkle in her eyes. With that single glance, all my doubts sank in. I knew she's happy. I knew she wouldn't want me to hold her back. I don't want to take that happiness from her for that was what I am fighting for. I was fighting for her happiness for 23 years now... and I will continue to fight for it. The ceremony started and ended but the twinkle never left her eyes. I love you sis...from the bottom of my heart, I do.