Okay! This is it. I am now in my last semester. Finally! I think it's time to get serious with my studies. I know I've said this a lot of times now. But I really have to do it this time. I can't just settle with a passing grade of 75 or so. That would get me nowhere and it's against what I had planned before. WORLD DOMINATION *insert maniacal laughter here*... I know I have to sacrifice a lot of things: YM, blog, net surfing, anime, forums, online friends. All that. Gyaaah! I can't imagine life without it. X_x I hope the result would be enough to compensate for my temporary NET DEATH. I am scared to fail myself. After all, I hate failure. I used to think I wasn't born for that. There's no such word in my vocabulary. I was quite distracted for awhile. I admit that. I wasn't taking everything seriously. But now I realized, I had to stand up. But before this, I have to settle everything first. So I've come up with notes for my friends so you won't get worried or anything like that. And to clear things a bit. It's not that I won't be totally online. Well, I'll keep a low profile for a few months. Maybe I'll update my blog once a week. ^_^

Kuya Tan and Ate Khaye: You might wonder where I am or what I'm doing. Heehee. I'll be studying real hard. Of course, I don't want to fail you both too. Just stay happy with each other and keep updating your friendster accounts. Okei? Coz I'll be checking that once a month. I want to see your US trip photos huh! Don't forget to buy me a gift!!! Heehee. I love you both! ^_^

Serene: If you still haven't got the clue why I got mad at you, it's because I made you my priority and it seems to me that I allowed you to have me as just an option. It hurts me to think I became your second choice. But probably, that's what love can do. I know Miki's important to you and I hate him for stealing my bestfriend away from me. You chose him over me and I was replaced by your RO friends whom you have met for only a year or so. You can openly say everything to them but you kept everything from me. I still don't know why or since when. Guess, I wouldn't want to know about that. Yes, I was disappointed but not because of what you did, but because I expected too much from you depriving you to grow and all that. I know I can't keep you with me and Maan forever. I was too selfish to think that way. But that's not what friendship is all about. I realized that. I became overprotective and selfish and I don't want to go on that way. Like the last episode of Gakuen Alice, Mikan can't follow Hotaru forever. I understand now that we can't keep choosing the same path. I was overwhelmed by our dreams or MY dreams rather that I failed to consider you both. Maybe because I assumed that it's what you also wanted. I am still depressed and I haven't totally gotten over it yet. I still get emotional when I think of it. But I have to move on and pull myself together. I need to think things through. After all, it's what I'm supposed to be good at. Analyzing. All wounds will heal in time. Just in case there's anything to forgive, I already did. And for all the negative things I did, I am sorry. I had always been thankful for the memories we had that I still consider it the most important phase in my life. We were there for each other, or atleast try to be. I know I can't throw all that away. It will be forever etched in my heart until the day I die. I will still continue my dreams. For my sake and yours. :) I am Xenos.

Ryzhen: Hei Maan. Sorry if I wasn't able to text you lately. I was really bothered with what happened to me and Serene. But as I've said, my soul won't rest until I get it all out. Thank you for everything. I will still pursue our chosen path and hopefully we get to live the dream as what we visualized it to be. You are my knight and you'll forever be. I wish you all the best too! Go show 'em what you've got! Haha! I miss you so much!

Nick and Jo: Tasuki!!! Thank you for cheering me up. Heehee. For teasing me with Gerald. hahaha! You were one of the few who made me realize that getting angry won't get me anywhere. That it won't solve anything. Though I haven't personally talked to her about it, I guess it'll come in time. You will always be one of my shiichiseishi. As for Tamahome, don't stress yourself to death in earning YEN!!! Wahahahaha! There's more to life. Enjoy it. Goodluck with your Japanese gal. I'll be seeing you again Tama-chan! Don't forget to invite me to your wedding. Heehee! You're not getting any younger so you should go get yourself a pretty wife like Tasuki! Lolx. ^_^

Jake: Hmm.. I've basically told you everything beforehand so this wouldn't come up as a surprise. Thank you for being my confidante, my diary and my conscience. Lolx. Funny because you're way younger than me yet you think so ahead. ^_^ Funny how you've always been the sensible one. You always make me laugh and you stay with me despite my shortcomings. I probably haven't told you that I appreciate everything you did. But best of all, I am thankful to have met someone like you. If I am the Yin, then you are my Yang. (*Yin, the darker element, is passive, dark, feminine, downward-seeking, and corresponds to the night; yang, the brighter element, is active, light, masculine, upward-seeking and corresponds to the day; yin is often symbolized by water, while yang is symbolized by fire.*) You are someone that balances and stabilizes my character. Don't you know that Yin and Yang can transform into one another? Remember when Blessed Devil turned into Seraphim, Tohru turned into Insanity! I was amazed when I realized that. So i'm sorry for the abrupt change I had before. But even if I did get "darker and/or weirder", I did try my best to stay the same for you alone. I know that things between us aren't the way they used to be. I can feel that too. But somehow I am thankful because you try to bring it back somehow. You believed in me when I, myself, thought everything was hopeless. When I thought I'm about to fall apart, you were there to keep me whole. Thank you. Heh. Thank you for not giving me up. If we had met in different circumstances then maybe... maybe things could somehow work out. ^_^ But then again, remember what you said before: Don't...... with internet buddies. I am thinking that maybe I did *partially or almost* break that promise. Haha! So there casanova, demi-god, persistent brat, honey and all the names I used to call you. Lolx. Thanx and sorry for everything. I will miss that creepy smile. (^^,)

Raissa: Keep on enhancing your blog! You are definitely one of the great writers I've encountered so far that's why I idolize you so much! Heehee! you're like a model to me. Seriously. ^_^ I know that you'll be concentrating with your board exam too so I wish you the best! You can do it! Believe me. You'll pass it with flying colors. I'm always here to back you up. Stay cool!!!

Clariz: Mama Clariz, *kumusta naman yon?!* hehehe. I'm gonna miss that line coming from you. We can text once in while! Just to get the latest buzz from you. Heehee. I entrust APC to you and Neko 'coz Kuroi and I would get pretty busy for a while. ^_^

Jers: Well, I guess I've been staying away from this for awhile. If you're reading this, I want to say sorry. I want you to know that I am still guilty for what I did before. I don't know why. Probably because you were so good to me and what I'd given you in return was the exact opposite. I still think of myself as bad. You never did blame me for anything. That's why I still call myself the ultimate villain. Even if you said that everything's okay, it still bothers me. I feel bad. I was probably traumatized because up until now I can't move on. I am scared that I would do the same thing to another person. I can't talk to you because I am afraid that you'd get hurt again. I don't want that. I want you to be happy and it seems to me that you'll be happier without me around. I know it's been almost a year... I hope that I'd get over this guilt. Again, sorry for everything. :(

APC friends: Just keep APC alive. Oh and DON'T FLOOD THE FORUM WITH SPAM! rawr... or I'll get each and everyone of you. Akabane, do your job huh. You're good at terrorizing! :p Lolx.

Crypt/VoA friends: Sorry for the sudden change I had before. I wasn't thinking of everything clearly back then. Sorry for my shortcomings and for being cold. I can't even pretend to be happy. Sorry for that... especially to Endoh Chiaka and Bloo Gale.

My Frequent Visitors: Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! For taking time to read my entries. I am really grateful. ^_^ I hope you'll continue visiting my little haven. I hope that I made a difference in your life even for a single bit. I love you all! I promise I'll do my best! Ja, matta ne minna-san!