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Welcome to Shroom Side. Finding solace among nature on a cold rainy day.
.::The Shroom::.
~Kim
~"i don't need to see him to know in my heart that he exists..."~
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.::My Adores::.
~her prince Kurama
~her dad, the dependable King
~her mom, the caring Queen
~her sister, the older princess
~her brother, the young prince
~her soul sister Serene
~her knight, Lord Ryzhen
.::Detests::.
~dark minions
~sewing class
~inconsiderate profs
~evil darkness
~rejection
~failure
~betrayal
~uncertainty
.::Wishlist::.
~to be part of her prince's world~to travel the world
~to visit Ireland, Japan & Korea
~volumes and tomes of magical craft
~peaceful kingdom
~a bright future ahead
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~to collect Ouran High Manga
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Thursday, January 19, 2006
*~*~*Feeling nostalgic*~*~*
It's almost a month since I last talked to Sasuke-kun. As I was looking at my blog and the pics on it, a wave of sadness and emptiness filled me. :'( I missed the old times. Yes, I do. The bickerings and rants, the jokes and fun. I miss all of them. Of course, added to my loneliness was my parting with my previous teammates Naruto and Sasuke. Well, maybe I have to accept that it's different now. Of course, partings are always sad but an ending leads to a new beginning is it not? Ho-hum. Well, I haven't heard anything from the other genins as well. Seems Konoha ninjas walked different paths now. Sad but true. I will miss them. They will always occupy a special part in my life. They always will remain cherished. :'(
It's almost a month since I last talked to Sasuke-kun. As I was looking at my blog and the pics on it, a wave of sadness and emptiness filled me. :'( I missed the old times. Yes, I do. The bickerings and rants, the jokes and fun. I miss all of them. Of course, added to my loneliness was my parting with my previous teammates Naruto and Sasuke. Well, maybe I have to accept that it's different now. Of course, partings are always sad but an ending leads to a new beginning is it not? Ho-hum. Well, I haven't heard anything from the other genins as well. Seems Konoha ninjas walked different paths now. Sad but true. I will miss them. They will always occupy a special part in my life. They always will remain cherished. :'(
*~*~*Mental Health*~*~*
Last Monday, our duty was in National Center for Mental Health in Mandaluyong. Well, at first I was not yet okay with the idea of handling mentally-ill patients. Not that I don't like them but more on how should I deal with them. I was excited and troubled that I don't know how to react. Last Tuesday, I finally met my patient. I was aloof but I did my best to communicate with her. It turned out well I guess and I realized that they really do need lots of attention and patience. Personally, I had a hard time but after all the singing and laughing, I guess it was okay. :) I also had to experience viewing an ECT. I felt bad when I saw how the patients reacted. I almost cried. But the staff told us that it was for their own good. Sad but they do know more than us. Life is harder for them. My patient was really lonely and wanted to go home. But she's not yet fully recovered. She was admitted last 2001 but still I believe that in due time, she will be back to our society again. After all, like the philosophy of the institution, "there is always hope for the meantally-ill clients..."
Last Monday, our duty was in National Center for Mental Health in Mandaluyong. Well, at first I was not yet okay with the idea of handling mentally-ill patients. Not that I don't like them but more on how should I deal with them. I was excited and troubled that I don't know how to react. Last Tuesday, I finally met my patient. I was aloof but I did my best to communicate with her. It turned out well I guess and I realized that they really do need lots of attention and patience. Personally, I had a hard time but after all the singing and laughing, I guess it was okay. :) I also had to experience viewing an ECT. I felt bad when I saw how the patients reacted. I almost cried. But the staff told us that it was for their own good. Sad but they do know more than us. Life is harder for them. My patient was really lonely and wanted to go home. But she's not yet fully recovered. She was admitted last 2001 but still I believe that in due time, she will be back to our society again. After all, like the philosophy of the institution, "there is always hope for the meantally-ill clients..."
Monday, January 16, 2006
*~*~*Confession*~*~*
Silence... Heartbeat... They walk hand in hand in my own secluded world.
Ho-hum. Today, I've learned a very important lesson. I've learned when to hold on and when to let go. I chose to let go. I should've done that back then. I never would've suffered this much. Well, sometimes, hope can be tricky. *sigh* He was not dense. I was the one. I chose to see things I wanted to see, believe things I wanted to believe, losing touch of reality. It sure does make me feel lonely and empty inside. Yes, it does. No matter how much I try to smile, I was the one masking the pain. I was the one bearing it all. Not him. Not my dear one. It was me all along. He chose to move forward, leaving me blinded...trying desperately to find someone to hold on to. The sun decided to live in my eyes the moment I met him. It blinded me. So bright was the light that tears welled up. My precious tears. Only for you. Cry, that's my only consolation. The same tears that sprang out. So sweet and sad. I love you. But it was too late now. I loved you with all my heart. I haven't noticed that before. When did it start? How many smiles did it take for me to realize that I couldn't live without them? I wanted to see you, to hold you.. Guess, that would be impossible now. There's only one wish left... I wanted to see your smile... even from afar. Yes, even from afar... I love you Uzumaki Naruto. This time, I'll go on a different path. A path that would never ever cross the ones you take.
Silence... Heartbeat... They walk hand in hand in my own secluded world.
Silence... Heartbeat... They walk hand in hand in my own secluded world.
Ho-hum. Today, I've learned a very important lesson. I've learned when to hold on and when to let go. I chose to let go. I should've done that back then. I never would've suffered this much. Well, sometimes, hope can be tricky. *sigh* He was not dense. I was the one. I chose to see things I wanted to see, believe things I wanted to believe, losing touch of reality. It sure does make me feel lonely and empty inside. Yes, it does. No matter how much I try to smile, I was the one masking the pain. I was the one bearing it all. Not him. Not my dear one. It was me all along. He chose to move forward, leaving me blinded...trying desperately to find someone to hold on to. The sun decided to live in my eyes the moment I met him. It blinded me. So bright was the light that tears welled up. My precious tears. Only for you. Cry, that's my only consolation. The same tears that sprang out. So sweet and sad. I love you. But it was too late now. I loved you with all my heart. I haven't noticed that before. When did it start? How many smiles did it take for me to realize that I couldn't live without them? I wanted to see you, to hold you.. Guess, that would be impossible now. There's only one wish left... I wanted to see your smile... even from afar. Yes, even from afar... I love you Uzumaki Naruto. This time, I'll go on a different path. A path that would never ever cross the ones you take.
Silence... Heartbeat... They walk hand in hand in my own secluded world.
Friday, January 13, 2006
*~*~*Friday the 13th*~*~*
Hi! Today's friday and the 13th day of the month. As the saying goes, it's bad luck if a Friday is matched up with the number 13 in the Roman calendar. :) But, I feel different. It's exactly the opposite. Teehee... Well, yesterday was my "hell day". Ugh! Was I pissed off. It's funny how people take advantage of you just because they know you won't fight back. I've realized that most of them is more concerned on what they will gain rather than what they can give. How lonely that must be. Later that night, I realized that I mustn't give up no matter what. I can't let them manipulate those meek beings who just wanted peace and serenity. Hmph. Anyway, I am in a dilemma right now. I promised Maan that I would attend her birthday bash in Pangasinan but something came up. It's duty. I am the class president and there's supposed to be a meeting. But I really wanted to see my friend! Whom will I choose? One or many? Argh! Important things are at stake. Whatever will I do? I really need to talk to Ral. Hmm.. what else. Oh yeah. Rineo-chan and I talked for hours and hours and we've talked 'bout so many things. Haha! Sweet gal. Wish you luck sis.. I hope everything works well for you. Not like what happened to me. Awww... I still remember what folly I was in that time. But then again, nothing can change it now. He's got his own path and I've got mine. If he still haven't got the courage to tell me what he feels before the month ends... then, it really is goodbye. Of course I won't let him know about the deadline. Let his instincts tell him. I've been caged for so long and my wings ache already. I've had enough. I did everything that I could. So it's all up to him now. The countdown begins...
*I don't mind him seeing this coz he's not visiting this part of the web.*
Hi! Today's friday and the 13th day of the month. As the saying goes, it's bad luck if a Friday is matched up with the number 13 in the Roman calendar. :) But, I feel different. It's exactly the opposite. Teehee... Well, yesterday was my "hell day". Ugh! Was I pissed off. It's funny how people take advantage of you just because they know you won't fight back. I've realized that most of them is more concerned on what they will gain rather than what they can give. How lonely that must be. Later that night, I realized that I mustn't give up no matter what. I can't let them manipulate those meek beings who just wanted peace and serenity. Hmph. Anyway, I am in a dilemma right now. I promised Maan that I would attend her birthday bash in Pangasinan but something came up. It's duty. I am the class president and there's supposed to be a meeting. But I really wanted to see my friend! Whom will I choose? One or many? Argh! Important things are at stake. Whatever will I do? I really need to talk to Ral. Hmm.. what else. Oh yeah. Rineo-chan and I talked for hours and hours and we've talked 'bout so many things. Haha! Sweet gal. Wish you luck sis.. I hope everything works well for you. Not like what happened to me. Awww... I still remember what folly I was in that time. But then again, nothing can change it now. He's got his own path and I've got mine. If he still haven't got the courage to tell me what he feels before the month ends... then, it really is goodbye. Of course I won't let him know about the deadline. Let his instincts tell him. I've been caged for so long and my wings ache already. I've had enough. I did everything that I could. So it's all up to him now. The countdown begins...
*I don't mind him seeing this coz he's not visiting this part of the web.*
Sunday, January 01, 2006
*~*~*Yet Another Poem*~*~*
Sleepless nights are here again...
Countless dreams while still awake...
Why can't we be more than friends?
This is more than I can take.
Hopes and dreams are covered in mist.
Why has it gotten into this?
In best of friends I am amidst...
Shattered my thoughts of love and bliss.
How can we be friends at all?
When deeper and deeper in you I fall...
Every night waiting for your call,
Standing by the post just down the hall.
Darkness looms over like a curtain.
Of these feelings I am not certain.
I know, to forget you is my aim.
To save my self from all the blame.
If you told me earlier, it wouldn't be this way.
If you had done it, I wouldn't be astray.
But now, I believe I've lost my way.
Coz it's you I see at the end of the day.
*Sigh... I feel angst hanging in the air around me*
Anyway, I won't let it get the best of me. ^_^
Still happy for everything! ^_^
Sleepless nights are here again...
Countless dreams while still awake...
Why can't we be more than friends?
This is more than I can take.
Hopes and dreams are covered in mist.
Why has it gotten into this?
In best of friends I am amidst...
Shattered my thoughts of love and bliss.
How can we be friends at all?
When deeper and deeper in you I fall...
Every night waiting for your call,
Standing by the post just down the hall.
Darkness looms over like a curtain.
Of these feelings I am not certain.
I know, to forget you is my aim.
To save my self from all the blame.
If you told me earlier, it wouldn't be this way.
If you had done it, I wouldn't be astray.
But now, I believe I've lost my way.
Coz it's you I see at the end of the day.
*Sigh... I feel angst hanging in the air around me*
Anyway, I won't let it get the best of me. ^_^
Still happy for everything! ^_^
*~*~*Akemashite Omedetou*~*~*
Yet another year has come! Today is the year of the dog. Shigure-san must be happy this year! *snickers* Oh well, 'tis also the perfect time to look back at the special memories made in the past year. Speaking of which, I'll list the highlights of last year's events...
Last year...
*I joined my first ever *and probably my last! hehe* sports competition in school *college*. I participated in the women's basketball event and I made our batch banner and i'm glad that a lot of them liked it.
*I also participated on our On-the-Spot postermaking contest and Treasure Hunt during the Nurses' Week. *Or was it foundation day?*
*I passed my Med-Surg class with a not-so-good grade. *Still lucky I got through it!*
*My sis already settled in Germany with her husband.
*I get to spend more time with my family... as a whole. My father stayed with us for months.
*I became the class president for our last year in college.
*I already had my grad pic taken.
*I learned to love and to let go.
*I spent a lot of time with my friends which I think I might've neglected before.
*I learned a lot through all the challenges and hardships.
*I learned to appreciate everything that was offered to me and I am thankful for all of that.
*I saw an actual live birth. Aw...
*I learned to be compassionate and resilient.
These are so far some of the greatest things about 2005! I'll list more when I remember them.
Life is so beautiful!!!
Yet another year has come! Today is the year of the dog. Shigure-san must be happy this year! *snickers* Oh well, 'tis also the perfect time to look back at the special memories made in the past year. Speaking of which, I'll list the highlights of last year's events...
Last year...
*I joined my first ever *and probably my last! hehe* sports competition in school *college*. I participated in the women's basketball event and I made our batch banner and i'm glad that a lot of them liked it.
*I also participated on our On-the-Spot postermaking contest and Treasure Hunt during the Nurses' Week. *Or was it foundation day?*
*I passed my Med-Surg class with a not-so-good grade. *Still lucky I got through it!*
*My sis already settled in Germany with her husband.
*I get to spend more time with my family... as a whole. My father stayed with us for months.
*I became the class president for our last year in college.
*I already had my grad pic taken.
*I learned to love and to let go.
*I spent a lot of time with my friends which I think I might've neglected before.
*I learned a lot through all the challenges and hardships.
*I learned to appreciate everything that was offered to me and I am thankful for all of that.
*I saw an actual live birth. Aw...
*I learned to be compassionate and resilient.
These are so far some of the greatest things about 2005! I'll list more when I remember them.
Life is so beautiful!!!