*~*~*To Love and To Be Loved*~*~*

I never allowed myself to be drawn out anymore. I am afraid to love and to be loved. To love because I might fail the person I will love and to be loved because I am afraid that it may not last. I am afraid to get hurt, the same way that I am afraid of love because I have seen and felt how it, or even the lack of it, can hurt. This is probably selfishness. I don't want to be caught in the web of deceit and lies that every relationship these days live with. I am afraid that I might be left behind, or that I may leave someone behind. I may be paranoid or something, but I guess it may be safe to state that the greatest thing that I do is to get the best of everything without risking anything. I wish I can be brave but I guess I am not ready for life. Perhaps someday, someone will make me brave. I must wait till then...