.::Welcome::.
Welcome to Shroom Side. Finding solace among nature on a cold rainy day.
.::The Shroom::.
~Kim
~"i don't need to see him to know in my heart that he exists..."~
~email: kimxen@gmail.com
.::My Adores::.
~her prince Kurama
~her dad, the dependable King
~her mom, the caring Queen
~her sister, the older princess
~her brother, the young prince
~her soul sister Serene
~her knight, Lord Ryzhen
.::Detests::.
~dark minions
~sewing class
~inconsiderate profs
~evil darkness
~rejection
~failure
~betrayal
~uncertainty
.::Wishlist::.
~to be part of her prince's world~to travel the world
~to visit Ireland, Japan & Korea
~volumes and tomes of magical craft
~peaceful kingdom
~a bright future ahead
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~to collect Ouran High Manga
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.::Dewdrops::.
Legion Of Gaea
APC
Blessed Devil
Prince Yoeru
Knight Angelo
Prince Akabane
Prince Mamaru
Prince Kira Yamato
Destiny Waltz
Lord Knight Kiba
Lady Maxienne
Princess Pristine
Princess Lilai
Valley of Angels
Otaku Corner
Divine Castle
Princess Raissa
Satoshi Kagemaro
Blogtimizer
Lone Red Wolf
Neon Spring's Gallery
.::Dreamdrops::.
Games:~Luna Mobile (server 22)
~Ikemen Sengoku (hiyori)
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~I Love Yoo
~UnOrdinary
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Wednesday, November 30, 2005
*~*~*Helena*~*~*
"Long ago
Just like the hearse, you die to get in again
We are so far from you"
One night wrapped in my own sadness, as I was strolling down the secluded town of the archers, there in front of me was a fallen nurse cap. I wondered who lost it and as I was about to pick it up, a man did so leaving the essence of what I thought was already mine.
"Burning on just like a match you try to incinerate
The lives of everyone you know
And what's the worse you take
From every heart you break
And like the blade you stain
Well, I've been holding on tonight"
I sat down for a while sulking over the loss when someone offered a deal with me. He was holding a guitar with one piece of rose held in his mouth, sat beside me and offered what I lost minutes ago. Before receiving the nurse cap, I asked why he chose to gave it to me. Instead of answering, he just nodded and turned away.
"What's the worst that I can say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight."
I got up and followed you. Made friends and thanked you profusely. You laughed and what a sweet laugh that was. Knowing you were kind, I sat with you for a while talking about things in that strange world. You seemed to know a lot. Well, what do I expect from a member of a notorious organization known to that land?
"Came a time
When every star fall brought you to tears again
We are the very hurt you sold
And what's the worst you take
From every heart you break
And like the blade you stain
Well, I've been holding on tonight"
As we were talking, you happen to ask me why I was sad. I took a deep breath and told you what breaks my already heavy heart. Why I weep night after night thinking what could've been, regretting everything from the past. You looked up in that vast, blue sky. I can see the reflection sparkle in those spheres. For a moment, I thought my sadness was mirrored in those glistening eyes. You shook them away and wore the sweetest smile I've known. You told me lots of things that made me feel better.
"What's the worst that I can say
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight
And if you carry on this way
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight"
Secretly, I wished I could've met you earlier. Earlier than I met the one who shattered my heart into pieces. I would've been saved from my misery by that innocent smile, bright eyes and enigmatic laugh. But such is not the way of fate.
"Can you hear me?
Are you near me?
Can we pretend to leave and then
We'll meet again
When both our cars collide"
Sighed heavily, my depression strats to set in. Wallowing me with sadness I've never experienced in my life. Again, I weeped. Why won't I learn from my past mistakes? Why won't this heart stop loving? I thought... desperately, then I realized I was caught by this...
"What's the worst that I can say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight
And if you carry on this way
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight..."
Me: What if it's the only love you ever wanted?
You: It is the love you WANT, but, is it the love you need? Or you deserve?
Me: *in deep thought* I've asked that a lot of times... why?
You: Don't be cruel to yourself. Sometimes we have to learn to let go and look forward instead.
I didn't know that you were talking about what I should do... to get over you.
*Helena is a song by My Chemical Romance*
"Long ago
Just like the hearse, you die to get in again
We are so far from you"
One night wrapped in my own sadness, as I was strolling down the secluded town of the archers, there in front of me was a fallen nurse cap. I wondered who lost it and as I was about to pick it up, a man did so leaving the essence of what I thought was already mine.
"Burning on just like a match you try to incinerate
The lives of everyone you know
And what's the worse you take
From every heart you break
And like the blade you stain
Well, I've been holding on tonight"
I sat down for a while sulking over the loss when someone offered a deal with me. He was holding a guitar with one piece of rose held in his mouth, sat beside me and offered what I lost minutes ago. Before receiving the nurse cap, I asked why he chose to gave it to me. Instead of answering, he just nodded and turned away.
"What's the worst that I can say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight."
I got up and followed you. Made friends and thanked you profusely. You laughed and what a sweet laugh that was. Knowing you were kind, I sat with you for a while talking about things in that strange world. You seemed to know a lot. Well, what do I expect from a member of a notorious organization known to that land?
"Came a time
When every star fall brought you to tears again
We are the very hurt you sold
And what's the worst you take
From every heart you break
And like the blade you stain
Well, I've been holding on tonight"
As we were talking, you happen to ask me why I was sad. I took a deep breath and told you what breaks my already heavy heart. Why I weep night after night thinking what could've been, regretting everything from the past. You looked up in that vast, blue sky. I can see the reflection sparkle in those spheres. For a moment, I thought my sadness was mirrored in those glistening eyes. You shook them away and wore the sweetest smile I've known. You told me lots of things that made me feel better.
"What's the worst that I can say
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight
And if you carry on this way
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight"
Secretly, I wished I could've met you earlier. Earlier than I met the one who shattered my heart into pieces. I would've been saved from my misery by that innocent smile, bright eyes and enigmatic laugh. But such is not the way of fate.
"Can you hear me?
Are you near me?
Can we pretend to leave and then
We'll meet again
When both our cars collide"
Sighed heavily, my depression strats to set in. Wallowing me with sadness I've never experienced in my life. Again, I weeped. Why won't I learn from my past mistakes? Why won't this heart stop loving? I thought... desperately, then I realized I was caught by this...
"What's the worst that I can say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight
And if you carry on this way
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight..."
Me: What if it's the only love you ever wanted?
You: It is the love you WANT, but, is it the love you need? Or you deserve?
Me: *in deep thought* I've asked that a lot of times... why?
You: Don't be cruel to yourself. Sometimes we have to learn to let go and look forward instead.
I didn't know that you were talking about what I should do... to get over you.
*Helena is a song by My Chemical Romance*
*~*~*Ryuusei*~*~*
"I believe your promise
It's too hard to give me courage
Always I feel it...
The precious time with you."
My shooting star.
Why is it that I smile when I think of you? How do you manage to make a gloomy day bright? Ho-hum. I kept asking myself why of all the people, my thoughts kept coming back to you? What's with you that makes it so addictive? Don't you know how many countless nights I've suffered just because my mind's plagued by memories of you? Ugh... I get pissed off easily and not knowing why pisses me off even more. T_T I certainly don't love you. No, I'm not denying anything 'coz there's nothing to deny about? I'm happy with the way my life goes and I'm contented. Love is just for silly people. Hey, how come I'm writing silly stuffs nowadays?
My shooting star.
"I believe your promise
It's too hard to give me courage
Always I feel it...
The precious time with you."
My shooting star.
Why is it that I smile when I think of you? How do you manage to make a gloomy day bright? Ho-hum. I kept asking myself why of all the people, my thoughts kept coming back to you? What's with you that makes it so addictive? Don't you know how many countless nights I've suffered just because my mind's plagued by memories of you? Ugh... I get pissed off easily and not knowing why pisses me off even more. T_T I certainly don't love you. No, I'm not denying anything 'coz there's nothing to deny about? I'm happy with the way my life goes and I'm contented. Love is just for silly people. Hey, how come I'm writing silly stuffs nowadays?
My shooting star.
*~*~*Back to Rune Midgard*~*~*
Okay, now I'm back to Midgard. I wonder if that's a good thing or not. Wasn't that just a week ago that I said I would get serious? Well, I am. But then, I need to loosen up too sometimes or else you'll see me trapped in an asylum. ^~^ So, what's this Rune-Midgard that I am talking about, you ask? It's actually the famous game by Gravity called Ragnarok. What's the deal? Basically, some cute anime-like sprites, online chatting, adventure parties, cool classes/jobs, guild wars and one-on-one battle/pvp all packed in one merchandise. Ragnarok. You can even marry online. *sweatdrops* That's for the jaded ones like me. Hahaha! I've also heard lots of stories that real people actually fall in love either with other players online or their very own characters. *lots of sweatdrops!* heehee... Can't help it 'coz it's an alternative world. Mou... If it can just happen in real life then things would not be so complicated. ^_^ Imagine hunting through woods and killing monsters to gain zeny *RO's form of currency* and then trading items with others *pretty much like barter system in ancient times* ^_^ Then if you die, you'd be resurrected by a Priest. Wohoo.. Then go after the one who killed you. Heehee. I've met lots of friends online too so I don't regret having played the game. :)
Oh by the way, this is my first post for the month of December!!! ^_^
Okay, now I'm back to Midgard. I wonder if that's a good thing or not. Wasn't that just a week ago that I said I would get serious? Well, I am. But then, I need to loosen up too sometimes or else you'll see me trapped in an asylum. ^~^ So, what's this Rune-Midgard that I am talking about, you ask? It's actually the famous game by Gravity called Ragnarok. What's the deal? Basically, some cute anime-like sprites, online chatting, adventure parties, cool classes/jobs, guild wars and one-on-one battle/pvp all packed in one merchandise. Ragnarok. You can even marry online. *sweatdrops* That's for the jaded ones like me. Hahaha! I've also heard lots of stories that real people actually fall in love either with other players online or their very own characters. *lots of sweatdrops!* heehee... Can't help it 'coz it's an alternative world. Mou... If it can just happen in real life then things would not be so complicated. ^_^ Imagine hunting through woods and killing monsters to gain zeny *RO's form of currency* and then trading items with others *pretty much like barter system in ancient times* ^_^ Then if you die, you'd be resurrected by a Priest. Wohoo.. Then go after the one who killed you. Heehee. I've met lots of friends online too so I don't regret having played the game. :)
Oh by the way, this is my first post for the month of December!!! ^_^
Sunday, November 27, 2005
*~*~*My Bdae Bash*~*~*
^_^ I've had one of the best nights of my life yesterday. I threw out a party and few of my friends were there. *Mostly the ones I cared most about, but still they're not complete... oh but that's because of reasonable circumstances ^_^ Wakatta ne.* Actually, I almost thought it wouldn't turn out great. Why? Because they had this devious plan *and it was plotted by my mom! ^_^* They thought of giving me a surprise bdae party. But they were found out. *I always thought I had this unique instinct in me... and it was so.* Aha aha ahahahahaha! Still, I am surprised to see my classmates, both from college and highschool, were present. Some of them even slept *they didn't actually sleep T_T!* over. Huhuhu... Kept me wide awake for the rest of the night! Especially, Armeeh and Erick with their rantingsand were engaged in a so-called battle of wits *which is more like 'battle of Ptz' to me...* hahaha... because of the "Judo thing". Anyway, we all enjoyed it. We also played a crazy game of "1..2..3 pass" *I didn't even lose once! ^_^* and "lucky 9" *I am more lucky then Armeeh and Erick! teehee...* Of course, serious talks were not missed. We had our share of pretty good advices to those who needed it most. ^_^ I love my friends and I always will. They filled up our gauge of "communication" and made it whole again. Of course, there were those who made the party incomplete. I can't help mentioning them too! For one, my sister dearie and Kuya Tan who couldn't make it for they're in Germany. *Although they called!* This was my first celebration without my sister so I almost went crying if not for Ral and Jec's bickerings about zombies and everything! heehee...* Maan wasn't around as well. My trusted knight is somewhere in her missions and can't be bothered *teehee.... oh okay, she's in Pangasinan!* But I'll be there on her birthday! Teehee... My family's been planning the trip. It's as though they were more excited than me! ^_^ Okay what else.... Hmm... Many thanks to those who came:
Jec - the High Priest. Haha! ^_^ Also awake half of the night. *because he can't find any comfortable position to sleep*Ahahaha!
Ral - the Priestess. Hey bez! Heal the undead! *Ugh, she was the first one to go to dreamladia.
Armeeh - the Problematic Princess. Don't worry too much bessie! You can get over that problem of yours... ^_^
Cathy - the caring confidante. Thanx for helping me with these pasawais... especially for keeping the noise down. Heehee...
Erick - the Bitter Gourd... ahahaahah ahahaha!!! Okay, I take that back.. heehee... the Joking Jester... for keeping everyone up. Ugh! Hilarious... "Sabado, Judo? Linggo, Judo? Kalokohan!", "O asan ka? Nagjujudo ng madaling araw! Sinong ka-judo mo?" wahahahaha! Crazy Erick... crazy!
Ted Ernisa - the amazing Amazon... for keeping the dimwits in place... heehee... Just kidding. Actually, for the lots of advices you gave Armeeh. ^_^ Love really makes everyone mature. You manifest the symptoms dear. ^_^
Joseph - The disciplined kuya. Hey bro! My fave! Thanx for being responsible all throughout the party. Teehee. ^_^ Thanx for being part of the fun!
Ana Marie - the workaholic winner. Heehee... Thanx for dropping by eventhough you still have to go to work at a very late hour... T_T And thanx for calling every now and then. I really appreciate that.
Nino - the undying undead. thanx for giving us something to talk about. ^_^ Teehee... And for giving Ral that handkerchief when she cried about Pinoy Big Brother. Aha aha ahahahaha!
Donna, Kat and Em - Thanx mamas for dropping by! ^_^ Although you guys are from far places, you still managed to come. Thanx T_T...
To my family - My parents, my sis and kuya tan, bro, titos and titas and cutie cousins... Thanx for making it happen. I know your efforts in making this party successful were not put in vain. Muchos gracias. ^_^
Minna-san, thanx for making one ordinary day... just plain... EXTRAORDINARY! ^_^
^_^ I've had one of the best nights of my life yesterday. I threw out a party and few of my friends were there. *Mostly the ones I cared most about, but still they're not complete... oh but that's because of reasonable circumstances ^_^ Wakatta ne.* Actually, I almost thought it wouldn't turn out great. Why? Because they had this devious plan *and it was plotted by my mom! ^_^* They thought of giving me a surprise bdae party. But they were found out. *I always thought I had this unique instinct in me... and it was so.* Aha aha ahahahahaha! Still, I am surprised to see my classmates, both from college and highschool, were present. Some of them even slept *they didn't actually sleep T_T!* over. Huhuhu... Kept me wide awake for the rest of the night! Especially, Armeeh and Erick with their rantingsand were engaged in a so-called battle of wits *which is more like 'battle of Ptz' to me...* hahaha... because of the "Judo thing". Anyway, we all enjoyed it. We also played a crazy game of "1..2..3 pass" *I didn't even lose once! ^_^* and "lucky 9" *I am more lucky then Armeeh and Erick! teehee...* Of course, serious talks were not missed. We had our share of pretty good advices to those who needed it most. ^_^ I love my friends and I always will. They filled up our gauge of "communication" and made it whole again. Of course, there were those who made the party incomplete. I can't help mentioning them too! For one, my sister dearie and Kuya Tan who couldn't make it for they're in Germany. *Although they called!* This was my first celebration without my sister so I almost went crying if not for Ral and Jec's bickerings about zombies and everything! heehee...* Maan wasn't around as well. My trusted knight is somewhere in her missions and can't be bothered *teehee.... oh okay, she's in Pangasinan!* But I'll be there on her birthday! Teehee... My family's been planning the trip. It's as though they were more excited than me! ^_^ Okay what else.... Hmm... Many thanks to those who came:
Jec - the High Priest. Haha! ^_^ Also awake half of the night. *because he can't find any comfortable position to sleep*Ahahaha!
Ral - the Priestess. Hey bez! Heal the undead! *Ugh, she was the first one to go to dreamladia.
Armeeh - the Problematic Princess. Don't worry too much bessie! You can get over that problem of yours... ^_^
Cathy - the caring confidante. Thanx for helping me with these pasawais... especially for keeping the noise down. Heehee...
Erick - the Bitter Gourd... ahahaahah ahahaha!!! Okay, I take that back.. heehee... the Joking Jester... for keeping everyone up. Ugh! Hilarious... "Sabado, Judo? Linggo, Judo? Kalokohan!", "O asan ka? Nagjujudo ng madaling araw! Sinong ka-judo mo?" wahahahaha! Crazy Erick... crazy!
Ted Ernisa - the amazing Amazon... for keeping the dimwits in place... heehee... Just kidding. Actually, for the lots of advices you gave Armeeh. ^_^ Love really makes everyone mature. You manifest the symptoms dear. ^_^
Joseph - The disciplined kuya. Hey bro! My fave! Thanx for being responsible all throughout the party. Teehee. ^_^ Thanx for being part of the fun!
Ana Marie - the workaholic winner. Heehee... Thanx for dropping by eventhough you still have to go to work at a very late hour... T_T And thanx for calling every now and then. I really appreciate that.
Nino - the undying undead. thanx for giving us something to talk about. ^_^ Teehee... And for giving Ral that handkerchief when she cried about Pinoy Big Brother. Aha aha ahahahaha!
Donna, Kat and Em - Thanx mamas for dropping by! ^_^ Although you guys are from far places, you still managed to come. Thanx T_T...
To my family - My parents, my sis and kuya tan, bro, titos and titas and cutie cousins... Thanx for making it happen. I know your efforts in making this party successful were not put in vain. Muchos gracias. ^_^
Minna-san, thanx for making one ordinary day... just plain... EXTRAORDINARY! ^_^
Tuesday, November 22, 2005
*~*~*Liham Para Sa Iyo*~*~*
Haaay *hinga ng malalim* Ang dami kong gustong sabihin sa iyo na hindi ko magawa sa tuwing kaharap ka o kausap ka sa kabilang linya ng telepono. Hindi ko kasi alam kung paano o kung bakit kailangan pa.. torpe din ako eh... kahit female version *ngiti*. Nga pala, maraming salamat sa lahat. Sa mga araw na ikaw ang iniisip ko at hindi siya. Lingid man sa kaalaman mo pero malaki talaga ang naitutulong mo sa akin. Sayang dahil limitado yung oras natin tuwing magka-usap tayo at napupuno pa ito ng tawa at usapang walang katuturan *tawa*. Sorry ha, hindi kita nagawang ipaglaban sa kanila dahil unang-una, wala naman akong karapatan sa iyo. O ikaw sa akin... Alam mo, para sabihin ko sa iyo, masaya ako at dumating ka sa buhay ko. Hndi man sa romantikong aspeto kundi bilang isang kaibigan na laging nandiyan at bilang estrangherong napadpad sa magulo kong mundo. Ngayon lang ako nakahanap ng isang tulad mo. Gusto kong sabihin na "hindi na kita pakakawalan pa" pero anong magagawa ko kung ikaw ang gustong lumayo? Muli't-muli bumabalik sa iyo ang alaala ko. Pilit ko mang itinatago, talagang ikaw ang laman ng puso ko. Naiinis na nga ako sa takbo ng mga pangyayari. Pilit kong idinidikta na kalimutan ka pero nauuwi lang sa wala. Ang totoo nasasaktan ako dahil binabalewala mo lahat ng ibinibigay ko. Siguro nga hindi mahalaga ang isang tulad ko sa kagaya mo. Para akong isang mumunting bituin na nalalampasan ng iyong tingin sa malamyos na pangitain ng pinipitagang buwan. Alam kong hindi mo kayang ibigay o ibalik man lang ang atensyong ibinabahagi ko sa iyo. Malinaw naman sa akin yun. Siguro ako lang talaga ang may problema. Kahit na nasasaktan ako sa tuwinang nagbibigay ako ng payo sa iyo, isinasantabi ko lahat yon. Pilit kitang inaabot samantalang may iba ka ring gustong makamtan. Ipinagmamalaki ko dati na hindi ako martir pero mapaglaro ang tadhana at iniligaw ka sa tahimik kong paraiso. Lagi akong nangangatuwiran na sana hindi ganito ang nararamdaman ko kasi napapagod din ako. Sana hindi pa huli ang lahat kapag kahit papaano, maramdaman mo ang halaga ko...
Heehee... how was it? Kinda emotional, don't you think? Well, I was inspired by the love songs I heard over the radio and the memory of Kurama *Yuyu Hakusho* and Haku *Spirited Away* passed my mind... Waiiii!!!! Kurama-kun, Haku-san!!! I miss yah!
P.S.
Akala niyo IRL *in real life* yung entry na to no? Hmmm... Who knows? This letter might be for someone out there... *sighs...*
Haaay *hinga ng malalim* Ang dami kong gustong sabihin sa iyo na hindi ko magawa sa tuwing kaharap ka o kausap ka sa kabilang linya ng telepono. Hindi ko kasi alam kung paano o kung bakit kailangan pa.. torpe din ako eh... kahit female version *ngiti*. Nga pala, maraming salamat sa lahat. Sa mga araw na ikaw ang iniisip ko at hindi siya. Lingid man sa kaalaman mo pero malaki talaga ang naitutulong mo sa akin. Sayang dahil limitado yung oras natin tuwing magka-usap tayo at napupuno pa ito ng tawa at usapang walang katuturan *tawa*. Sorry ha, hindi kita nagawang ipaglaban sa kanila dahil unang-una, wala naman akong karapatan sa iyo. O ikaw sa akin... Alam mo, para sabihin ko sa iyo, masaya ako at dumating ka sa buhay ko. Hndi man sa romantikong aspeto kundi bilang isang kaibigan na laging nandiyan at bilang estrangherong napadpad sa magulo kong mundo. Ngayon lang ako nakahanap ng isang tulad mo. Gusto kong sabihin na "hindi na kita pakakawalan pa" pero anong magagawa ko kung ikaw ang gustong lumayo? Muli't-muli bumabalik sa iyo ang alaala ko. Pilit ko mang itinatago, talagang ikaw ang laman ng puso ko. Naiinis na nga ako sa takbo ng mga pangyayari. Pilit kong idinidikta na kalimutan ka pero nauuwi lang sa wala. Ang totoo nasasaktan ako dahil binabalewala mo lahat ng ibinibigay ko. Siguro nga hindi mahalaga ang isang tulad ko sa kagaya mo. Para akong isang mumunting bituin na nalalampasan ng iyong tingin sa malamyos na pangitain ng pinipitagang buwan. Alam kong hindi mo kayang ibigay o ibalik man lang ang atensyong ibinabahagi ko sa iyo. Malinaw naman sa akin yun. Siguro ako lang talaga ang may problema. Kahit na nasasaktan ako sa tuwinang nagbibigay ako ng payo sa iyo, isinasantabi ko lahat yon. Pilit kitang inaabot samantalang may iba ka ring gustong makamtan. Ipinagmamalaki ko dati na hindi ako martir pero mapaglaro ang tadhana at iniligaw ka sa tahimik kong paraiso. Lagi akong nangangatuwiran na sana hindi ganito ang nararamdaman ko kasi napapagod din ako. Sana hindi pa huli ang lahat kapag kahit papaano, maramdaman mo ang halaga ko...
Heehee... how was it? Kinda emotional, don't you think? Well, I was inspired by the love songs I heard over the radio and the memory of Kurama *Yuyu Hakusho* and Haku *Spirited Away* passed my mind... Waiiii!!!! Kurama-kun, Haku-san!!! I miss yah!
P.S.
Akala niyo IRL *in real life* yung entry na to no? Hmmm... Who knows? This letter might be for someone out there... *sighs...*
*~*~*To Love and To Be Loved*~*~*
I never allowed myself to be drawn out anymore. I am afraid to love and to be loved. To love because I might fail the person I will love and to be loved because I am afraid that it may not last. I am afraid to get hurt, the same way that I am afraid of love because I have seen and felt how it, or even the lack of it, can hurt. This is probably selfishness. I don't want to be caught in the web of deceit and lies that every relationship these days live with. I am afraid that I might be left behind, or that I may leave someone behind. I may be paranoid or something, but I guess it may be safe to state that the greatest thing that I do is to get the best of everything without risking anything. I wish I can be brave but I guess I am not ready for life. Perhaps someday, someone will make me brave. I must wait till then...
I never allowed myself to be drawn out anymore. I am afraid to love and to be loved. To love because I might fail the person I will love and to be loved because I am afraid that it may not last. I am afraid to get hurt, the same way that I am afraid of love because I have seen and felt how it, or even the lack of it, can hurt. This is probably selfishness. I don't want to be caught in the web of deceit and lies that every relationship these days live with. I am afraid that I might be left behind, or that I may leave someone behind. I may be paranoid or something, but I guess it may be safe to state that the greatest thing that I do is to get the best of everything without risking anything. I wish I can be brave but I guess I am not ready for life. Perhaps someday, someone will make me brave. I must wait till then...
*~*~*Of Hate and Love*~*~*
In a world full of hatred
That is slowly falling apart
A tormented and depressed soul
Sits alone in the dark
This soul might have been pure once
He might have been true
But as a result of what this world has done to him
He slowly starts to fall apart too
With all of this worlds prejudice and evil
And all of its hypocrisy too
This soul slowly became corrupted
And born anew
Full of hatred and disgust
This misanthropic soul never knew
That there was such a thing as love
He never thought it was true
Little did this dark soul know
That one day everything would change
A soul full of passion and love would come
And his life she would rearrange
But he hated the concept of love very much
He wished he could tear it apart
He thought it was just a fairy tale
Made up to soothe those sad at heart
When the day came that they finally met
He fell for her just like that
So beautiful and full of life she was
He knew he never wanted to turn back
It took a long time
And he was skeptical all the while
But she introduced him to love
And he finally learned how to smile
Transformed and anew
This soul was once again
But this time he had the best of both worlds
And he felt complete then
Able to control his hatred
And to finally show his love
This soul is finally happy
I am really in love
In a world full of hatred
That is slowly falling apart
A tormented and depressed soul
Sits alone in the dark
This soul might have been pure once
He might have been true
But as a result of what this world has done to him
He slowly starts to fall apart too
With all of this worlds prejudice and evil
And all of its hypocrisy too
This soul slowly became corrupted
And born anew
Full of hatred and disgust
This misanthropic soul never knew
That there was such a thing as love
He never thought it was true
Little did this dark soul know
That one day everything would change
A soul full of passion and love would come
And his life she would rearrange
But he hated the concept of love very much
He wished he could tear it apart
He thought it was just a fairy tale
Made up to soothe those sad at heart
When the day came that they finally met
He fell for her just like that
So beautiful and full of life she was
He knew he never wanted to turn back
It took a long time
And he was skeptical all the while
But she introduced him to love
And he finally learned how to smile
Transformed and anew
This soul was once again
But this time he had the best of both worlds
And he felt complete then
Able to control his hatred
And to finally show his love
This soul is finally happy
I am really in love
*~*~*Duty Days*~*~*
Whew! Everything's going from easy to difficult now. Our instructor introduced us to 'staffing'. Actually, we've observed that from our past duties but what's new was she appointed us to the designated jobs right away. I was the 'Charge Nurse' for the rotation. Man! Do I have to do all that job? T_T Well, gotta live by it if I want to pass ne? ^_^ After all, I want to make my family proud. Go!!! Hmm.. what else... the schedule for the school activites is already out and we're pretty much packed this sem. There's the Battle of Colors, Nurses' Week, PT Week, Acquaintance party and so on and so forth. Good! Lots of activites. Oh and I have good news!!! Our section will take part in this batch graduation pic taking! Oh my gawd!!! I'm having my very own grad pic!!! Yay!!! I feel one step closer to reality now. No more childish games I guess. It's time to get serious and talk business. Teehee... I can't wait to graduate. I'll probably be included in the October 2006 batch. woohoo.. I hope no problem arise anymore. ^_^ Wish me the best!!!
Whew! Everything's going from easy to difficult now. Our instructor introduced us to 'staffing'. Actually, we've observed that from our past duties but what's new was she appointed us to the designated jobs right away. I was the 'Charge Nurse' for the rotation. Man! Do I have to do all that job? T_T Well, gotta live by it if I want to pass ne? ^_^ After all, I want to make my family proud. Go!!! Hmm.. what else... the schedule for the school activites is already out and we're pretty much packed this sem. There's the Battle of Colors, Nurses' Week, PT Week, Acquaintance party and so on and so forth. Good! Lots of activites. Oh and I have good news!!! Our section will take part in this batch graduation pic taking! Oh my gawd!!! I'm having my very own grad pic!!! Yay!!! I feel one step closer to reality now. No more childish games I guess. It's time to get serious and talk business. Teehee... I can't wait to graduate. I'll probably be included in the October 2006 batch. woohoo.. I hope no problem arise anymore. ^_^ Wish me the best!!!
Monday, November 14, 2005
*~*~*Dynasty Warriors 4*~*~*
It's said that heroes appear in times of crisis.
The time was at the end of the 2nd century and the place was China.
To answer the call of the times, they have come.
Its cries rending the skies, the Phoenix soars.
Shaking the ground beneath its feet, the Tiger roars.
Piercing the clouds' veil, the Dragon rises to the heavens.
Wherever they go, there rains fire and destruction.
And so the age rages on:
There is none who can stop it.
Thus, the war between the Three Kingdoms has begun. Wei is a large kingdom that incorporates the Central Plains and Northern China, with its capital at Xu Chang. Driven by an intense ambition to rule all of China, Cao Cao has gathered many talented officers to serve under him and aid his conquest. Personally, after reading the "Romance of the Three Kingdoms", I believe that the Kingdom of Wei holds the greatest military prowess there is. It has a large army and enough great generals to lead it. Cao Cao, cunning and deadly, leads this army to victory time after time and won't stop until he clears the threats that surrounds his ambition. Included in the Wei army are: Cao Ren, Xiahou Dun, Xiahou Yuan, Zhang He, Zhen Ji and Sima Yi. Together they are symbolized by the ferocious Tiger in the myth.
The Kingdom of Wu lies to the Southeast of the Chang Jiang river with its capital at Jian Ye. Founded by Sun Jian and expanded by his sons, Wu is supported by a mix of veteran officers and fresh young talent. I admire Wu because of the leaders born in this kingdom. The army is impressive and tactics seldom fail. They are composed of several great generals with astounding moves. One I enjoyed viewing is Sun Ce. Sun Ce is the eldest son of Sun Jian. Quick-footed and brave, this "Little Conqueror" won a lot of battles and truly a pride of Wu. Lu Xun also earned the title "devil's child" beacuse he possess an innocent face and devilish charm. Wu was believed to be the last Kingdom to prevail in the "Romance of the Three Kingdoms". Included in the army of Wu are: Sun Quan, Sun Shang Xiang, Zhou Yu, Huang Gai, Zhou Tai and Lu Meng. They are symbolized by the soaring Phoenix in the myth.
Finally, Shu is a kingdom in the mountainous region of Western China with its capital at Cheng Du. Having endured the collapse of the old Han Dynasty, loyalists under Liu Bei dream of restoring the former glory of the Han. Liu Bei, the ruler of Shu, is a virtuous man whose dream is to restore Han. This kingdom is my favorite of the three. Their battles are astounding even in the "Romance of the Three Kingdoms". It never failed to touch my heart; how these people fight for what they believe in. They are not just making one man's dream come true or fighting for kingdom expansion or for power. It's their hope and virtue which pushes them to the top. Among them are my favorites Zhao Yun and Zhuge Liang. Zhao Yun is one of the 5 tiger generals of Shu. His incredible bravery was often praised by Liu Bei. Zhuge Liang on the other hand is the most brilliant mind of his time. He served as Liu Bei's strategist after being honored three times by his visits. Even at the face of death, he served his kingdom well. Included in the Shu army are: Guan Yu, Zhang Fei, Yue Ying, Wei Yan, Pang Tong and Jiang Wei. They are symbolized by the mighty Dragon.
^_^ Dynasty Warriors and the Three Kingdoms is a story of trust, loyalty, deceit and betrayal brought about by personal desires, genuine hopes and dreams. Romance and War may be opposite but they blend beautifully in this wonderful epic.^_^
It's said that heroes appear in times of crisis.
The time was at the end of the 2nd century and the place was China.
To answer the call of the times, they have come.
Its cries rending the skies, the Phoenix soars.
Shaking the ground beneath its feet, the Tiger roars.
Piercing the clouds' veil, the Dragon rises to the heavens.
Wherever they go, there rains fire and destruction.
And so the age rages on:
There is none who can stop it.
Thus, the war between the Three Kingdoms has begun. Wei is a large kingdom that incorporates the Central Plains and Northern China, with its capital at Xu Chang. Driven by an intense ambition to rule all of China, Cao Cao has gathered many talented officers to serve under him and aid his conquest. Personally, after reading the "Romance of the Three Kingdoms", I believe that the Kingdom of Wei holds the greatest military prowess there is. It has a large army and enough great generals to lead it. Cao Cao, cunning and deadly, leads this army to victory time after time and won't stop until he clears the threats that surrounds his ambition. Included in the Wei army are: Cao Ren, Xiahou Dun, Xiahou Yuan, Zhang He, Zhen Ji and Sima Yi. Together they are symbolized by the ferocious Tiger in the myth.
The Kingdom of Wu lies to the Southeast of the Chang Jiang river with its capital at Jian Ye. Founded by Sun Jian and expanded by his sons, Wu is supported by a mix of veteran officers and fresh young talent. I admire Wu because of the leaders born in this kingdom. The army is impressive and tactics seldom fail. They are composed of several great generals with astounding moves. One I enjoyed viewing is Sun Ce. Sun Ce is the eldest son of Sun Jian. Quick-footed and brave, this "Little Conqueror" won a lot of battles and truly a pride of Wu. Lu Xun also earned the title "devil's child" beacuse he possess an innocent face and devilish charm. Wu was believed to be the last Kingdom to prevail in the "Romance of the Three Kingdoms". Included in the army of Wu are: Sun Quan, Sun Shang Xiang, Zhou Yu, Huang Gai, Zhou Tai and Lu Meng. They are symbolized by the soaring Phoenix in the myth.
Finally, Shu is a kingdom in the mountainous region of Western China with its capital at Cheng Du. Having endured the collapse of the old Han Dynasty, loyalists under Liu Bei dream of restoring the former glory of the Han. Liu Bei, the ruler of Shu, is a virtuous man whose dream is to restore Han. This kingdom is my favorite of the three. Their battles are astounding even in the "Romance of the Three Kingdoms". It never failed to touch my heart; how these people fight for what they believe in. They are not just making one man's dream come true or fighting for kingdom expansion or for power. It's their hope and virtue which pushes them to the top. Among them are my favorites Zhao Yun and Zhuge Liang. Zhao Yun is one of the 5 tiger generals of Shu. His incredible bravery was often praised by Liu Bei. Zhuge Liang on the other hand is the most brilliant mind of his time. He served as Liu Bei's strategist after being honored three times by his visits. Even at the face of death, he served his kingdom well. Included in the Shu army are: Guan Yu, Zhang Fei, Yue Ying, Wei Yan, Pang Tong and Jiang Wei. They are symbolized by the mighty Dragon.
^_^ Dynasty Warriors and the Three Kingdoms is a story of trust, loyalty, deceit and betrayal brought about by personal desires, genuine hopes and dreams. Romance and War may be opposite but they blend beautifully in this wonderful epic.^_^
Saturday, November 12, 2005
*~*~*My Final Year in College*~*~*
Okay! I can't believe that this would be my final year in college... T_T I know that it's not sure yet coz I might fail in my major subjects but hey, this would be my last step. No more minor subjects to deal with. All I have to do is make good in my lecture and of course my duty and cases. Well, speaking of duty, my schedule is every Monday - Wednesday. Whew, so that leaves me with my lecture classes on Thursday - Saturday. :) Though I am also aware that everything will be tougher than the previous experience, my confidence will not falter. I can make it!!! ^_^ I will really give my best shot this time. I won't lose to my rival, SHERMINATOR!!!! *Teehee... I secretly call him that...* Weird but that guy just gets into my nerves. I dunno why. He doesn't do anything bad to me our aura just repels each other. The feeling is mutual. I know that guy doesn't like me as well. So it's just fair. Hmm... besides, I like challenges. It keeps me from getting bored. ^_^ Am I that bad? (",)
Okay! I can't believe that this would be my final year in college... T_T I know that it's not sure yet coz I might fail in my major subjects but hey, this would be my last step. No more minor subjects to deal with. All I have to do is make good in my lecture and of course my duty and cases. Well, speaking of duty, my schedule is every Monday - Wednesday. Whew, so that leaves me with my lecture classes on Thursday - Saturday. :) Though I am also aware that everything will be tougher than the previous experience, my confidence will not falter. I can make it!!! ^_^ I will really give my best shot this time. I won't lose to my rival, SHERMINATOR!!!! *Teehee... I secretly call him that...* Weird but that guy just gets into my nerves. I dunno why. He doesn't do anything bad to me our aura just repels each other. The feeling is mutual. I know that guy doesn't like me as well. So it's just fair. Hmm... besides, I like challenges. It keeps me from getting bored. ^_^ Am I that bad? (",)
Sunday, November 06, 2005
*~*~*Neopets*~*~*
Teehee... My Neopet Harun0Sakura is very very clever now... Yay!!!
Teehee... My Neopet Harun0Sakura is very very clever now... Yay!!!
Saturday, November 05, 2005
*~*~*A New Life*~*~*
Today, I start a new life without you...
I packed all my things including my memories...
Left for another city to get away...
I'd start a new life without you... oh!!!
I left my worries too...
Guess I should add that...
Coz my burden seems to be uplifted...
When I start a new life without you...
Ok! Enough of that chant... hehe... Lemme see, this is my very first post for the month of November. Ho-hum... Another month had passed thus another beginning. Speaking of beginnings, like what I've written above, this is a start of a new life. Yes, I need to clean the closet coz it's full of things I guess I never wanted to see. Though it would always be remembered... I admit that. Ho-hum. I don't know but even though I was leaving at that moment, I'm not sad. I felt happy. Happy coz I can finally move on. Of course it ached a bit when I told him about my decision. Heehee... Funny coz amidst the pain, the departure was sweet and genuine. I like him and maybe more than that but I have to accept that it's the end. We cannot cross what's beyond friendship. So I have to close the book with my brave, elegant prince in it. I already wrote the final chapter. :) I just wish him all the love and happiness this world can offer. I even wish he could find what he's looking for. And with that, I wake up with a beautiful start... and this morning... I just saw a rainbow. ^_^
Today, I start a new life without you...
I packed all my things including my memories...
Left for another city to get away...
I'd start a new life without you... oh!!!
I left my worries too...
Guess I should add that...
Coz my burden seems to be uplifted...
When I start a new life without you...
Ok! Enough of that chant... hehe... Lemme see, this is my very first post for the month of November. Ho-hum... Another month had passed thus another beginning. Speaking of beginnings, like what I've written above, this is a start of a new life. Yes, I need to clean the closet coz it's full of things I guess I never wanted to see. Though it would always be remembered... I admit that. Ho-hum. I don't know but even though I was leaving at that moment, I'm not sad. I felt happy. Happy coz I can finally move on. Of course it ached a bit when I told him about my decision. Heehee... Funny coz amidst the pain, the departure was sweet and genuine. I like him and maybe more than that but I have to accept that it's the end. We cannot cross what's beyond friendship. So I have to close the book with my brave, elegant prince in it. I already wrote the final chapter. :) I just wish him all the love and happiness this world can offer. I even wish he could find what he's looking for. And with that, I wake up with a beautiful start... and this morning... I just saw a rainbow. ^_^